I'm sick...

It sucks...

I feel like the plague or something...

Going to the doc tomorrow to get some meds...

Hoping I won't need a shot...

I just really want to feel better....

If only he was one year younger and I was at least five years older it could have been a perfect match ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a couple of months since I've updated. I guess first off I should let everyone know that I am alive and I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. Although at times I've wanted to, but I haven't. Everything has been going pretty good recently. I've been able to go month to month now without something major happening, which is great ( Read more... )

I miss him. I really do. It's been 3 weeks now and I still feel like a piece of me is messing. Although I am at peace with it and I have accepted it. I just miss my bestfriend. I miss watching Heros with him every Monday night, I miss phone calls that last late into night, I miss waking up in the morning and having a sweet voicemail on my phone him ( Read more... )

Today has been a good day. I haven't cried one tear. It almost feels like I'm at peace with everything. I was actually able to get some rest last night, YAY!! And I'm looking forward to taking a little nap later today. I had a long talk with a friend last night and she helped me in a way nobody else could, said things that noone else would even ( Read more... )

My mom asked me earlier today if I was tired. We were joking around about something laughing and carrying on, and she asked if I was tired. I told her "no", that I was fine and she said, "well you look tired, you should go take a nap." The truth is, I haven't had a decent nights sleep in days. I used to be able to find peace in my sleep, it was my ( Read more... )

It's over.

I've lost.

I'm broken.

This hurts a lot more than the first time.

Oh God, how am I ever going to get over this?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINA BREA! You're forever missed and loved!!

On a different note, my world is just about to come crashing down all around me. I'm fighting to keep it from crashing, I just hope it's enough. Last time I didn't fight, this time I am. If it ends tonight, it'll just break me. Of all days, why today? I told ya'll that the rug was going to ( Read more... )

So, my friend died in Feburary, my uncle died last week, and my grandpa had a minor stroke last Saturday. Could life get any harder than what it is at this moment? The year has barely just begun and already there is so much hurt and so much loss. It's almost like if I start to get comfortable and start to move on something bad will happen.  After ( Read more... )

Oh lord. Where do I even start? Friday I was sitting at work thinking once again that I was going to have fun this weekend because I didn't have class and not just that, but I had Monday off from work. Why is it that everytime I even think that thought something bad ends up happening? Yesterday afternoon my dad got a phone call from my grandparents ( Read more... )