I haven't writen in this journal since my grandpa died last year. So much has happened since then. My 20th birthday is on Monday. I don't know how i feel about that. Its weird. I'm one more year closer to being 21, which is pretty cool, but then again, it's just one more year away from when life was simple and easier. A time when my idea of ( Read more... )

I knew it was going to happen one of these days. I guess i just kept hoping that it wasn't going to be anytime soon. He has been sick for a while now and finally on Friday morning he closed his eyes and passed in his sleep. My grandpa was 84 years old. He lived a good, long life. I just wished it could have been a little bit longer ( Read more... )

This can't be real. On Thursday something totally unexpected happened. I couldn't believe it. There is finally the closure that i needed for so long. It happend accidentially. The truth has finally surfaced after all this time. It feels good to know what the truth really is, but makes me feel so many old emotions that i shouldn't be feeling ( Read more... )

So for those of you who don't know.. i've been dating this guy for over a month now.. it's so weird how it all started.. the relationship came out of nowhere. I never saw it coming, yet hands down, it's the best relationship i have ever been in. His name is Roy, and he is just amazing. I have never met a guy who treats me as well as he does! I ( Read more... )

For almost a week i sat in my dorm feeling sorry for myself.. whining and complaining about how once again i had been dicked over. When i finally stopped my selfishness things turned and changed right before my eyes. I never even saw it coming. This time three weeks ago, i never thought i would be as happy as i am right now. Fate works in weird

This is going to be a long, boring entry. Just warning everyone now. I just need somewhere to vent ( Read more... )

Three more days and back to MIA. I can't wait to get back to school. Don't get me wrong, i love being home seeing my family and spending time with friends, but i love being at school ( Read more... )

Two more exams and it will all be over. I can't wait to finally be back in the Fort! I'm really looking forward to not being surrounded by the stess the has been following me the past week and a half. Yet throughout the stress something good has come out of the past few days. I swear my life changes so quickly. Things seem to happen when you ( Read more... )

And so it is ( Read more... )

I have this idea/hope/dream and I have been wrestling with it in my mind for over a month now. There are times when it seems so intangible that I have turned my back to it. I try to just let it go and forget about it, but I turn around and it just creeps up and smacks me in the face. Yet there are those times when it seems almost inevitable that ( Read more... )