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No real man
No real man would let me leave like that or allow that much of a gap in time. Communication Is Off! I feel like the others can see it before I do. Today, I put his ring on the ring finger & ducked for cover.. & inevitably, our relationship was tested. I was tested. I had to try hard Not to respond or react, as I've had before. & I didn't. React. I ( Read more... ) -
Man gripet: bitch break
My attempts at smooth communication have left me exhausted & stressed too many times. Today, was just another one of those episodes. Because it was so close to the last one, and because my stress level is 0 to 80 lately, I went from 0 to 80 on the bitch meter yet again.
Looking back an hour ago, I know I overreacted. But. is it an overreaction if ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I'm getting bored with serving already. Of course, I knew I would. Finally, surrounded by peers of intelligence (them, with their full lives & this as their part time). I'm needing more stimulation & the world needs more of me. Use it or lose it??!!
Therefore, I must overcome my defeated behavior. Massage school has led to just a little more grief ( Read more... ) -
Now is a good time to write.
We are still together & so much has happened since the last entry. My 16 yr. Old dog, son, best friend..had to be laid to rest & by my call... I had to make the call. It was so hard that I know my drinking has increased. Thank goodness, I managed to pay rent on time in our new apartment. It's the only place we looked at too. Brand new everything. ( Read more... ) -
Now is a good time to write.
We are still together & so much has happened since the last entry. My 16 yr. Old dog, son, best friend..had to be laid to rest & by my call... I had to make the call. It was so hard that I know my drinking has increased. Thank goodness, I managed to pay rent on time in our new apartment. It's the only place we looked at too. Brand new everything. ( Read more... ) -
Another Break Up Blog
Another couple unable to make it beyond 2 years in New Orleans. I seemed to enjoy a challenge; subconsciously.. again. The cards were stacked against us. He's of a different race & country but that's not that it's a big of a deal. It's mine & his emotional problems, denials, & unhealed wounds that keep getting in the way. Hope was something I ( Read more... ) -
Firsts
I've gotten over the shock that I'll be late on my rent, for the first time, in this apartment. That's why I haven't run out the door yet, but instead made a trip to Felipe's for a burrito. I finished it & now sit in silence, aside the tell tell scratching of both my dogs. Yes, I need everything. Flea meds are on the list that the rent tops.
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now
now so much going on ( Read more... ) -
the gap
One day I may explain the gap in my entries ( Read more... ) -
desire
Never made it to Tennessee.
One more week. I think.
Aiming for Atlanta this time..
Apartments on Craigslist
Assist my imagination.
Hardwoods, Dogs OK
,and the desire to work
6 long nights this week
dear Goddess...