jordan is going to die... hes been pissing off my best friend to the point where i want to flat out castrate him

i went to the fair last night... it was pretty cool... aside from josh wanting to kick my ass and somemore bullshit, fucking drama lol

i havent used my journal in almost a year but now ive come to realize that LJ is pretty kick ass so here i am writing and ranting.... woo0o0oot

as i slip into the darkness there is a little bit of light that still reflects off what i have left behind.. a life of happiness and wealth towards the life of saddness and disapointment... the reasone i have chosen to walk this path is simple... i need to find myself... for the life of me i cannot find out what i want in life from myself and from ( Read more... )

im almost having fun i swear i have a car, bi-polar,adhd, and an excessive ammount of boredome.. lol NNyD

ive been on a sabatacle or however its spelt... but now im back i had a funeral to go to i saw my dad and my siblings and now i have to go back to work today fuck work i need a better job... NNyD

sitting here smoking a cigarette thinking to myself....more or less contemplating whether or not i wish to be deceased i dont know what to do with myself... one half says itll get better the other half says die now... voice in head says it will be painless... so im not sure and honestly im at the point where i dont care if i live or die... very ( Read more... )

time to wonder if any of my friends actually miss me..no one i used to hang out with calls... kinda wierd NNyD

yes my topic of entry is explicit.. because im in a mood to which i can find no better word than the one at hand... a udder blurt of excessive anger and pent up frustration only to be let out in writing because of so many promises to friends to not cut and what not... NNyD

im not exactly sure how i feel, but i know it isnt happy im more or less confused, about alot really but mainly about girls... but what ever it will work out i hope.... NNyD