i hate being the bad guy.
i hate letting people down.
i hate when people invest too much in me.
this is all blowing up in my face,
and yes, i lit the fuse.
and yes, i knew this wouldn't be easy.
and yes, this is all my fault.
but i'm still sorry.
because for all of my missteps,
i still never intended to hurt anyone.

"I don't want you to go. I'll eat you up I love you so."

i really like that he sees me for exactly what i am.
he sees me exactly how i want to be seen.
*sighs*
another time. another place.

 i am euphoric.

 is it horrible that i love the attention...
but i really just lack the follow through.
like seriously.
it's not you.
it's me.
why can none of you wrap your heads around this.
and when you try to stick around,
all it does is inspire me to flee.

"A compelling or constraining influence, 
such as a moral force on the mind or world, PRESSURE. 
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goddamn this noise inside my head.

 i just found a ton of pictures
from a time when my life was simpler.
first rule of growing up:
things always looker simpler back then.
(but at the time they hurt like hell)

god damnit i miss feeling the way i felt then.

 what the fuck just happened?
like... maybe this is just me being enhanced,
but all of the sudden i was overwhelmed with what happened.
like how i came to this point.
and where the fuck am i going now?

how are the two of you seeing the same thing?
[it's creeping me out.]
why do you expect me to fix you?
why did you actually befriend me?
why are you pinning ( Read more... )

 continue to rant about all the hot girls you could be fucking,
but you aren't because you "like" me.
thanks dude.

continue to talk shit about one of my best friends.
keep pushing me and you will look pretty fucking stupid
when i shut down all together and i am simply done with you.

i miss when we were FRIENDS.
and i could tell you anything.
and you didn't ( Read more... )

 “ Tell me some day if we talk what I did to make you leave."
- Langhorne Slim-