Great Wolf called.
Orientation is Thursday @ 330.
(THANK GOD.)
i was starting to panic.

i am really excited about having friends. 
and about people wanting to hang out with me.
and the fact that i don't feel so lonely all the time now.

maybe you have to feel like you're fighting a losing battle,
in order to have the courage to risk it all.

 text me back, god damnit.

 [in my dream i was speeding down some 4 lane highway. My driving was erratic and i remember feeling frightened. Claire was in the car with me, and it was brought to my attention that the brakes were out(i think thats what it was.) finally we ended up coming to a stop somehow in the left shoulder... and i think we were on a bridge maybe? An officer ( Read more... )

i enjoy my time spent with him.
i do.
i however, do not see myself dating him
or really being in a place to date anyone for that matter. 
i recognize that he's attractive and he's a great guy,
but i'm not attracted to him.
and he's not great for me.

with that being said,
i am oddly attracted to an unlikely candidate.
i'm very much okay with it though.
as i ( Read more... )

 I still haven't heard from Great Wolf.
Perhaps tomorrow?
i just want a job. (never thought i would say that.)
i think about XXXX a lot still.
i think a small part of me secretly hopes that its him every time my phone goes off. it's typical... that as soon as i'm over someone i get the "i made a mistake." NO SHIT. you're all idiots. i feel like i ( Read more... )

 “They call it the “quarter-life crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing ( Read more... )

 [this is one of the moments my mom is talking about.
ace just crawled up into my lap to sleep.
and to fuck with my silly straw.
however, this is one of the moments i should be thankful for.
because honestly, this is as good as it gets today.]

 "some days you just have to take joy in the little things.
You could see a hawk flying over your head, or maybe your kitty gives you a kiss,
or maybe you have a baby... and you name her Kaitlin."
it was then when her eyes welled up with tears. and then when i felt like she saw me. like she was seeing me for the first time and seeing all the pain in ( Read more... )

 “ Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

tomorrow is a new day.
and every day is like a do-over.
i guess ( Read more... )

 so i got fired from my job.
and hired at another...
all in 20 minutes.

I spent time with a boy today.
a boy that was not the one that has been clouding my brain.
it made me almost sad because it was just a different kind of feeling.
I could still be myself, but i was bored.
Bored in a way that i never am when i'm with you.
So then why am i not with ( Read more... )