So, it's another holiday season.

It's been over 2 years, 12000 miles, several continents, and I still think of you. I'd be lying if I ever had a day that I didn't at least think about you once in a while. And, perhaps I never will. I just want to know what was it about you? How did you get me so enthralled with you?

I drink less now, than I did ( Read more... )

So, why do I always meet new, cool girls when I'm getting ready to leave town?
What the fuck, mate?

So tired. I can't sleep. I have to be "up" in 3 hours. I feel anxious. I feel sad. I feel disappointed. I really just want to drop everything and leave. Just disappear. I'm tired of these routines and situations. I'm tired of being chained. I'm tired of losing sleep over this. I'm tired of being rejected by everyone. I'm tired of being ( Read more... )

My birthday is in 12 days and for whatever reason I have the last image of my mom I ever saw stuck in my head. She was lying in her bed, struggling for breath, emaciated. The skin was drawn back around her bones, there was that certain darkness of restlessness, lack of sleep, underneath her eyes. She hadn't been able to eat in I don't know how ( Read more... )

I don't like that I still have regular dreams of you. And I guess this will be another year without you. And that's okay. I'll go to work, I'll go on my travels, I'll hang out with my friends, you just won't be there. At one point you told me to take all of our hang outs and mutual friends, funny thing, I don't hang out at any of those places ( Read more... )

Don't waste your lips on words I've heard before ( Read more... )

Not sure if I did the right thing last night. Yes, I want michelle in my life. Yes, she wants me in her life. But I can't be in her life like this. What happens when I move? Does she go with me, or does she stay in gainesville for her other relationships? What happens when all I need is for my girlfriend to just be with me, but she is with ( Read more... )

Dictionary ( Read more... )

For whatever reason, my mom keeps popping into my head today. And unlike for the last two months where whenever the fact that I no longer have a mom popped into my head and it didn't bother me, it now does ( Read more... )

For whatever reason, tonight I decided to go back through all my old entries and make a playlist of every song I quoted. It was a smaller playlist than I expected, but going through the journal was interesting ( Read more... )