so i got earrings, and a shirt, and a jacket, and dollarstore jewlery (from my niece paid for with her very own money)*pout* ronald got clothes and a giftcard from hot topic(the store my mom refuses to shop at for me)i ( Read more... )

Dearest Family ( Read more... )

*sigh* i love austin he is trying to get his own place and says when he foes he will collect me and ride away into the sunset.he says i just need a change of scene and he will be there to catch me when i fall he is the best lil' bro a girl could have my eric and my austin are all i have here to comfort the loss of all my friends whether they know ( Read more... )

I got laid off i dont know what happened our company lost this really big account and like POW everyone got laid off so me and david and A are out of worki cant live without my job its the only thing that still has meaning ....purpose in my life the only non emotional thing i haf left to focus on.wtf am i going to do ( Read more... )

WHO AM I ( Read more... )

Hello from everyones favorite crazy obsessive bitch i just cant ......i have to stay everything i love is here so im gonna stay until the day it becomes too much to bear ..til the day i cant pretend anymore...and then i will step out for a smoke and disappear.i love them both i love everything about them...it doesnt matter anymore nothing matters ( Read more... )

All is Destroyed.The ppl who were supposed to be my friends are tattle tails.R knows everything.Why can't he hate me?It makes me feel lower than shit.I am lower than shit.I broke his heart.Well i wont do it again.He wants to work things out even now.I will not because i cannot promise it wont happen again.i am a whore ( Read more... )

Got visitation with jesse today *sigh* depress-ed when he had to go home.took C to work and saw my sissy apparently i was almost an aunt but she lost it yesterday *sigh* got my . *sigh*R is cooking me dinner burgers ...again *sigh* may have a new roommate J.*sigh*C got laid .not sure how i feel about that not that i have the right to feel one way ( Read more... )

Well here I am again depress-ed over shit i have no control over. did you ever just wake up and just wish you hadnt and wouldnt ever again i did that i thought i was wide awake but i came to realize ive been asleep for a very long time and its time to wake up .im going to be alone forever and that will be fine......i think ....*sniff,sigh*

All of you who know me know how i feel about this meggie said if you feel this way then repost i am please do it too ( Read more... )