This will hopefully be my last entry into this journal that i call my own
its time for me to grow up and stop dwelling on my own fears
I will continue a journal in another form
but, this one
was done a long time ago
I have never been so upset
and i don't feel like i can een write about it anymore
so goodbye to all those people who never even read
this ( Read more... )

I can't stand it how everything can be going so well, yet i still don't feel good, i feel almost worse.  I can't concentrate on anything.  I just don't understand why anyone can just let me be happy for once, why can't i just be happy ( Read more... )

Why do i still surround my day around you?

The way that he looks at me
could make everything in the world right 
i never thought i would feel like this again
the way those eyes always seem to glance my way
i wonder if he sees it in my eyes
its like everytime our eyes connect
i dont see anything else
yet i look away 
and so does he
this could be something

Almost 16
i will have a license
a car
almost everything i want
just need that boy
and i actually have one in mind
he sees me for who i truly am
and that is so important
i really really want him to ask me out

There are heavy bags under my eyes
and i am trying to get myself together\
but these things always seem impossible

i wish i could take back all of those things that seem to make me who i am

why is everything so different in the last couple of days

im sorry to all of you who ive hurt

i am trying

you have to believe me

i am truly trying to make everything ( Read more... )

I am almost 16 and nothing turned out as planned
i was already going to have my license
a boyfriend
a car
and everything i wanted at the exact moment in which i turn 16
Sweet Sixteen?
whoever made that up can kiss my ass
i feel exhausted
i cant even keep my eyes open
why does this have to be so damn hard?

This moment goes out to everyone who said i was just another not so pretty face ( Read more... )

Maybe he didn't see it ( Read more... )

You look very pretty tonight

that would be a great comment if only if it was from somebody else

why do i still care?

why do i still look into his eyes like he was mine or something

man, my life is so sad