i dont even know what to say anymore.

you hurt me more than you know, but somehow, ive picked myself up.
i can live through this.. i have before.

bruises fade, so does heartbreak.

i hope every time you hear my song, at every show that i have, you feel the same way you did the first time, i hope it makes you cry.

i have spent the last week in hell.
i found out i was the other girl.
my girlfriend already had one.
apparently it was an open relationship.. i feel like shit.
that was on saturday.

i spent last night in the hospital with my best friend because she was sick.. until four this morning, and again didnt go to school.
dani left at eleven thirty to go to ( Read more... )

there is a canyon between us in this bedroom
yet all we do is stare across and reach with out hands
you do nothing to bridge the gap so i
sit back quietly and
wonder
i see all those other females with smiles on their faces
you seem to make the world happy and
i wish i was a part of
part of that
but theres nothing i can do to change
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im in love with this stupid fucking girl

who i want to kill right now for being such a fucking on-off confusing girl.

even though shes really not dumb, im just really annoyed and tired of caring about people that dont know what they want.

for the past two months, shit has been really fucked up ( Read more... )

if there were words to convey how i feel right now, it would fill a thousand pages.
the past two months have been so up and down, im not sure how i feel anymore.
things will be good for a few days, then shit the next.
but no matter what, i cant give up anymore.
ive done that so much, so many times, ijust cant do it.
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I am walking
out in the rain
and I am listening to the low moan
of the dial tone again
and I am getting
nowhere with you
and I can't let it go
and I can't get through...
the old woman behind the pink curtains
and the closed door
on the first floor
she's listening through the air shaft

to see how long our swan song can last
and both hands
now use ( Read more... )