I feel like such a bitch. Like I can't explain it. I know someone fucking hates my existence right now but I can't do anything about it. I cannot wait till hell is over. I didn't do this to spite her or anything. I wish she would understand that she has someone. In fact I think if I dated anyone she knew she would get pissed. I expected for my g/f ( Read more... )

A lot has been happening. Since everyone knows apparently, I have a girlfriend who I totally adore. I apologize to those who I have hurt in the process. I haven't felt anything like this since Dustin. Dustin and I thought we had a future together. I still love him just not the way I did then. We dated for four years until I found out he lied to me ( Read more... )

I am for once quite content this holiday season. Never went to that movie but still just sat and chilled the whole night. I am a tad bit hungry. I have eaten nothing all day and have been sleeping off and on. I need to get drunk lol. Some one come get me drunk. I have the alchy, you bring your body. I am getting fairly decent at driving the truck ( Read more... )

It is Christmas and I don't feel at all well. I drank, I was attacked by little shits that consider themselves related to me, and I got up 5 minutes before we had to leave. I went to my aunt's house for food and just to see people and I got so worn out. I dislike the part of the family that wasn't there thank god... I have to see them on the first ( Read more... )

I do not have a real xmas on xmas day... I am having Christmas on Christmas eve with my immediate family then xmas day I am supposed to go to my aunts. Well remember when I said I hate things being cancelled on me? DOOM struck again. No Christmas on Christmas day, only on New Years day because my family is gay like that ( Read more... )

I have been totally off today. Something is up and amazingly, I have no idea what it is. I don't know what to do with my life anymore or where to go from here. I am tearing things apart because I don't know how else to handle them. This is turning out to be the strangest, one of the worst, one of the best, and one of the saddest days of my life. I ( Read more... )