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noa_13

Long Update - Sorry but I need to vent

Jun 14, 2007 14:26

Well, I'm long overdue for an update, and I have alot I want to vent about. I'll cut this so it doesn't make your friends page explode. This is going to take a while, since I'm at work. Here goes!

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fulltimeslacker June 14 2007, 21:27:03 UTC

I really wish you would have told me about the addiction thing. I can't help but feel I was a bad influence there and I wouldn't have let you keep down that road if I'd known.

noa_13 June 14 2007, 22:26:25 UTC

*hugs* Don't worry about it. I WANTED to deal with it on my own. Plus I didn't know until pretty recently.

seiaidorei June 14 2007, 22:04:29 UTC

Trust me, I too was, am, and ALWAYS will be addicted to E. I haven't done it since Jan. 1 but I constantly crave it. I have dreams about it almost all the time, listening to any electronic music makes me crave, seeing and talking to certain people, and even places. I've tried many drugs, but ecstasy will forever be my love. I can't say no if presented the opportunity. I CAN'T. But since I've not done drugs, my mental health is a MILLION times better. Alcohol...well, that's another story. But let's just say I've been there. I am very proud of you for coming out and admitting this. It's something I have never openly, publicly admitted. But most of my friends know. Trust me, being open with people and letting them know these things is good because then you have support. If you have a craving for ANYTHING, TELL SOMEONE. I have learned too much about addiction both firsthand and through different types of classes. In fact, I would be honored if you ever really had a bad craving to give me a call and we can talk about it. It'd help me as ( ... )

noa_13 June 14 2007, 22:27:27 UTC

*hump*

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Oh wow, centralcentauri June 14 2007, 23:44:58 UTC

I think I know most of this, but there's alot of reading i'm gonna have to do. <3 you Paige, hope you feel better now.

Re: Oh wow, noa_13 June 15 2007, 12:54:08 UTC

Yeah, thanks for listening when I had to vent a few weeks ago. That was when I was at my worst, thought about the shit constantly.

Anyway, call me if YOU need to vent, you know I'm always here if you need someone to talk to!

triprc June 15 2007, 06:11:37 UTC

Hey I just gotta jump in about the E thing. I'm not trying to minimalize the emotional addictive qualities of E, but there is not research supporting the existence physically addictive properties in MDMA. Also while the chance of over heating is a real danger, any studies supporting brain damage have been limited to EXSESIVE users. For ex. 1 to 5 pills a day for two year. Users such as that also tend to be poly abuser. Moderate to minimal use has not yet shown any long term physical damage.

That being said I'm glad every thing is is going good and your happy.

noa_13 June 15 2007, 12:50:37 UTC

It's not physical per se...but when you want it that bad, your body starts to feel it too. It's hard to explain. Like I dont get the shakes or get sweaty and weak. Nothing like that, but I really want it. I start to remember past rolling events and I crave that feeling of euphoria again. So no, it's not physical, and I'm glad it's not. But it's still really rough when it's ALL you can think about.

As for the holes in my brain, I'm glad they're only in my head (no pun intended). Hopefully when we all get older we won't be the poster-children for "this is your brain on drugs" ads. Thanks for the info though!

spikedcolor June 16 2007, 01:59:54 UTC

*hugs* I don't think I can comment on everything, but I'm proud of you and wishing you the best of luck.

Have you tried a leave-in conditioner or flat-iron? Hope that helps without turning you off with my girl-ness. If it does, remember, I cut up dead shit for a living! Def not traditionally feminine ;)

noa_13 June 16 2007, 12:49:35 UTC

Haha, I think you're the girliest girl I can handle, Erin. But I love you sooooo much so I don't mind it. Plus I need SOMEONE to tell me this shit.

wtf is a flat iron? Is that like a straightener thingy?

Also, I need a new hair style, maybe some layers or something. My hair is all one length and past my shoulders now so it looks blah. But if I cut it shorter, like above shoulder level then it flips outward on the ends. Know what I mean? How I can I tame this beast and make it look cute?

spikedcolor June 16 2007, 22:11:47 UTC

Bingo- a flat iron is a straightener. Think a crimping iron from the 80's but with 2 flat pieces instead of the toothed-things they had.

Perhaps long layers? I'm actually not the best person to ask re:hair cuts. I'm currently trying to grow out both my bangs and my old dye-job, so my hair lives in a ponytail with barrettes :(

noa_13 June 16 2007, 12:50:07 UTC

Oh and thanks for the support! To know that people are proud of me helps ALOT!

:D