She's picking a dress ( Read more... )

Yep, woke up and i'm still ugly. Hooray for me.

So something i never thought would happen has happened. She didnt say no. She said she had to process it all. It never entered my mind that she might not have fully moved on. And now, honestly, im terrified. Im more scared than ive ever been in my life. Because i know how to lose someone. I know how to miss someone. i know how to get over someone. ( Read more... )

So i finally told Holly that i love her. Only took about 4 years. And what do i get out of it? A lesson for the future. Thays all i seem to get, lessons. Never the prize. Never the love. Im a fool. I broke something beautiful in my life due to pride and fear. But she did too. She was too scared to make the leap, just as i was. But ill take the ( Read more... )

Looking good is all that matters. I do not currentky look good. So thats why im alone. Whining aboit it is never the right move. I just wish that 30 pounds took less time to lose. I totaled at 230, need to get down to 190 if im going to be able to attract a woman. Sick of being lonely.

So i took off work early. Got home around 12:30. Ate some food, and realized i had a whole day so i decided to do one of my projects. I have this spot between two rooms that i wanted to paint, so i did it and almost immefiately as soon as i was done i got depressed. Being productive usually gets me out of these funks, but not at all lately. Nothing ( Read more... )

So, eight years...
I've decided to ressurect this because i dont give a shit about instagram and all that nonsense and FB would be too dramatic to be honest on so here i am. And LJ was always a place for drama, haha. Also trying to figure out why my phone isnt autocorrecting shit while im typing in this. So no one will read this because George RR ( Read more... )

This is cheesy as fuck, but does anyone else have a Twitter account? I just signed up and have no idea who to follow. My username is the same as here, noblesirrus

Hate doing this shit, but goddamn I'm mopey lately. I keep putting my head and pushing forward. Workout and eating is doing well. I'm pushing my body to its limits during my workouts. I've been a fat guy for so long that I usually push myself alot harder than normal. I kinda scare my buddies I work out with. I'm utterly disappointed with the ( Read more... )

Been a vegetarian for about a week now. I've eaten more food than is reasonable. I am constantly hungry and I still lost 2 pounds in one week.

WTF