pretty sure no one will ever read this. it's been almost three years since my last entry. reading through them I can't believe how horribly pathetic I was. All I did was whine about the most stupid bullshit. Yeah so high school sucked. Yeah so people suck. Whatever. I'm in such a good place in my life right now, I couldn't ask for anything better. ( Read more... )

this week has been pretty amazing ( Read more... )

still sad that I'm not going away to college. maybe I'll transfer after this first year. Katie left for college today. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. Bethany leaves at the end of this week. it just sucks. I'm going to miss all of them so much. steph, rebecca leave soon too. I'm still just really disappointed in myself. I'm smart, I ( Read more... )

okay, so it's been awhile since I've updated again. I've been so busy working it's not even funny. when I'm not working I'm spending as much time with my friends as I possibly can. I feel like everyone is leaving me, well, because it's the truth. all of the friendships I really value are going to be tested, because all of my close friends except ( Read more... )

I found out like an hour ago that I was awarded at jazz scholarship for OCC tonight. They announced it at jazz fest! yay!

alright, so I haven't updated since the vocal jazz new york trip this year. lots of things have been going on. I've been so busy with work and school. I'm officially in college, I am all registered and ready to start in September. I can't stand it though, I'm done with highschool. as much as I said I hated the school, I really didn't. yeah, people ( Read more... )

so this weekend was Vocal Jazz's New York trip. And we dominated. It was completely different from last year. way more laid back. Less clicky. Everyone was amazing...we are one big family. sad to see it's over. but the point of this entry is to say how we dominated ( Read more... )

so I had like an enormous emotional breakdown yesterday. I think a large part of it was lack of sleep from all my escipades from the last two weeks. I think when ur really tired things you're subconsiously scared of hit you harder than they normally would. I freaked out about my dads surgery, and I was in tears many times today. I went to bed ( Read more... )

so I think I just realized something
as much as I try to fit into your group
I never will
I think I just wish I had friends like you
I'm kidding myself
As close as I think we are...we really aren't
and I know you have no idea I feel this way
but I thought I'd say it

omg
this weekend equals this best weekend of my life
thank you so much to all my new and old friends
you are all amazing
major <3

more detail when I have the energy