happy birthday.

i walked into the convenient store by my mom's house and saw the clown card. i wanted to buy it for you so bad.

i just read my fucking livejournal back into entries written in june. buh. it's interesting to read how i felt leading up to certain events that i now know the outcome of ( Read more... )

i look into your face and i see so much of myself bursting back out at me. i hope and i pray that you don't ever have to deal with all the bullshit i did. all the bullshit i never told anyone. all the bullshit you never saw.

please don't grow up to be just like me.

you're so much stronger than i ever thought about being.

the three of us wake up at the same time.
we smoke the same cigarettes.
we listen to the same music.
we are the best roommates ever.

oh can i touch your cheeks somewhere?

tonight is poetry night, buh. i'm going if we get off work early, which we are the master of doing.

go ahead and forget all about me. who cares anyway ( Read more... )

i forgot to mention that for christmas my mom bought me brown chucks. brown is the best color ever, and i rock those chucks eeryday ( Read more... )

tonight i moved in with ally. that is some tight work. last night i got on a stage in front of many poetic youth and spat some poetry into a microphone and a bright light. it felt good to show some emotion again. it has been a hot minute since i've written anything worthy of anyone reading ( Read more... )

why is my boyfriend such a sketchy motherfucker? i don't even care about him and his sketchiness, and his fucking half the st pete area, because guess who called me? scottie too hottie. and guess who asked to take me out to dinner? and guess who got super hot? scottie too hottie. don't even fuck around ( Read more... )

bah humbug ( Read more... )

i don't know what to belive anymore. i want to believe you so bad. i don't want things to be over with you. i love you. but i just don't know.

everyone is such an asshole.

i'm going to new hampshire for a week with my dad. i get to visit my cousins up there and make 500 bucks. tight.