there's a beautiful sky tonight
and if you were by my side then we could share this but you are gone.
so come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars
cause nothing matters anymore.

if i could only see you now
for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
what he’s got that i don't have?
is it his brown eyes?

i know blue eyes ( Read more... )

please disregard everything i've ever said. apparantly i don't know what the fuck it is i'm doing. the phone call i got sunday night not only made the blood inside my head boil and explode everywhere, but it made my heart sink into the floor ( Read more... )

today shannon and i worked our fucking asses off and made the rent money in 4 hours. talk about some motherfucking soldiers ( Read more... )

friday came upon me so quickly. i haven't even had time to prepare myself. friday i will spend the day resting on the grass that has laid on top of you for 9 years. and i will cry ( Read more... )

jeremy in 9 days.

don't you realize you're losing me forever?

he said that he loves me. and you know what? i fucking love him too.

i tried so hard to guard myself. what a fuck up.

i got in my car so that i could drive back to the place i swore i would never step foot in again. but my car didn't make it. of course my car wouldn't make it. of course i had to call my dad and tell him i wasn't coming. so what did he do? he got in his car, drove to where i was stranded, and screamed at me in the middle of gandy for 45 minutes. oh ( Read more... )

i almost went to my car and got my knife. i almost fucked 8 months of hard work. thank god i didn't. but if one more thing goes wrong, my head is going to explode. why does everything in the free world have to go wrong at once. i fucking hate everything so much ( Read more... )

fuck usf and their losing of my schedule so i have to make a new one on the first day. blah. everything else is pretty straight though. i have a job now, so i can save money. because me and shannon need some scrilla so we can eat and pay rent and what not ( Read more... )

i moved the fuck out. now i live with shannon. and all is wonderful. ryan and i are so perfect.

god i'm drunk