lets see...i'm thinking of a number. nevermind, screw that. bacon? no. i'd really like to itch my brain. i think my brain is itching. as you can see, i'm quite, how should i say, all over the place today/morning, my fingers are hurting on the undersides. i think its because they are cold. anyway, while all painful distractions distract me from ( Read more... )

seriously....i cant spend my entire life worrying about what other people think of me or what im doing. i know what im doing and im not a liar. ive never lied to you. why would i start now? at some point you have to stop and think about how what other people think doesnt really matter. you know the truth. its particularly sad to me that this is ( Read more... )

ill be extremely thankful to have my car back. i hate being dependent on other people. especially when a lot of the times people dont follow through the way you would for them. im done asking for help. if i have to walk to my car tomorrow to get it then i will. preferably, ill ride the bus. but im not asking anyone for a ride - fuck that. those who ( Read more... )

thats it. thats pretty much the sum of life. i knew this before, but on a more micro-introspective level. a light bulb went off in my head last night, a realization of facing adversity in the pursuit of happiness on a macro-introspective level. thats life in a nutshell. thats the point. its all you need to know. i mean, not really all, but thats ( Read more... )

long term goals are just that - long term. so the pages will turn and the world will unfurl its plans for us. there are some key people in my life that i believe are a true asset to existence; i'm thankful to have met them. a handful of them i've come to meet in college and its great. i hope to keep these people at my side for as long as i live ( Read more... )

i now know. and will perform accordingly in the best interests of the others. where once there was no clear enemy, there now is and i shall join the forces that quietly destroy them at every turn. attrition is the name of the game. as for me, i continue to wander lost, but the path is clearer now. there is no more mist and i see all the gorillas. i ( Read more... )

where does it all go when its all done? and what is it anyway? i dont know. it seems just like there are certain buttons waiting to be pushed, however, theres always a choice. you can push the red button or the blue button, but the button has lasting affects. and the funny thing about those buttons, is when you or the people who are going to be ( Read more... )

its become clear that i hold no footing in her life anymore. im the unimportant "best friend". i will only be spoken to on her terms, not mine. when she could take time, she will not, she will do her stuff. on the weekend, i get the privelidge of speaking to her. that means, if i want to speak to her, the only way im going to get a hold of her is ( Read more... )

well i feel like i should be receiving a newspaper in the morning and the paper reads: You Lose. lately it seems like i've been losing at life and the battle just keeps getting tougher. perhaps my streak of getting what i want has completely run out and its back to not getting what i want pre-highschool. my life needs a jump-start from the ( Read more... )

Hi, so it's been a while. Where should I begin ( Read more... )