I was driving today and i really just wanted to let go of the wheel and drive off a cliff. I was in moms car so i didnt do it. im ready to see my next life.
Somebody kill me. 
Im unafraid.

Jai guru deva, om.

Nothings gonna change my world.

wow.   what a weekend.

So ive been feeling like a big loser lately.  I mostly just sit in my room and do nothing. Ive been soul searching and ive come to a few conclusions ( Read more... )

Take these sunken eyes and learn to see.

I hung out with Barry all weekend. He's a nice guy.

'nuff said.

I wonder how bad ive fucked up.

College. Friends. Life.

I want to be a good person. I want to be a good friend. I want to be successful. If anybody who reads this feels like ive fucked them over in any way Im sorry. Im sure it wasnt intentional. Ive been selfish and stupid lately. I tried to go back to Shaun and Ambers but I sometimes just feel ( Read more... )

if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied, eluminate the no's on their vacancy sign, if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks, then ill follow you into the dark...

What the hell is wrong with me?
Ive been puking my guts out for almost 24 hours now. 
When is the madness going to stop?

What the fuck am i doing?

I got my stuff taken care of today to tranfer to evansville. Go me. Im so effing bored. Nyquil and the beatles are keeping me company right now. I just drank probably way too much but its good. I need to sleep and not be bored. Im going crazy.

Im begining to think that i might already be crazy.