Within the last 6 months I discovered
-Supernatural
-fanfiction
-audiofics
Suffice to say it has been a LOT to catch up on and boy, has it been a lovely ride.

Because you cannot solely live in the light-
and the future is moody like a goddess.

Sadness breaks out of me like rain out of a heavy cloud, and floods europe, asia- and the world...

Did I lose?
Did I gain?
I'm not sure.
I repeat every detail all over again and try to wrack my mind to give me that little bit more information I need to let the scale ( Read more... )

How can a person be so shattered and broken and still live?
How can the mind be nothing but black smoke and still you manage to smile 'bout a silly joke?

How could I that let be done to me twice?

I should have turned away...
It started healing and even had advantages-
now its all ripped open, bleeding and all good it held is lost  for good.

I deny myself ( Read more... )

Out-Side-In

Inside's world
and outside thoughts
voiced
-melt
only in the strangers minds
and knowing
-seemingly
while treading with soft feet
in wirlwinds

O ( Read more... )

...with roots impregnable by any storm.

But I'm restless these days

Tied to you I dont want to be a burden weighing you down.
I know it happens-abruptly so, without any warning and on different occasions.
I'm not making it easy...

Restless- my feet they keep a-wandering.
And last night I didn't miss you-
because you were here.

Writing, ( Read more... )

This friday I'm gonna drive all through the country to give a dog a new home that was nearly beaten to death in the south of Spain and was saved by an animal organisation working down there.

My grampa 
tapped on the mirror today for 10 minutes straight 
and clapped his hands 
to welcome the stranger...

On this half-concious planetary race
back to the gruesome fairytale of our days*, 
I burned my tongue french-kissing the sun...

*aka reality

and I still wonder how I even managed the "half-"

So...
thats been another death...

I seem destined to remain the survivor
through all of this
I wonder what this is supposed to be

But PLEASE dont take HIM as well