I don't know why I feel the need to keep myself in constant pain. I hate being back at school, I'm lonely and sad and I just want to get the hell out of here. The end is in sight so that's keeping me going.

I'm so tired of being lied to. If you say you are going to do something do it.

I hate that I can't just be happy...that all the good things that are going on in my life right now can't make me smile the way I used to. I've been having a great time with Jen, and I'm realizing just how much I've missed the time we share together, no jobs, movies taking over our lives. This vacation is good. I love getting to see my aunt and ( Read more... )

I wake up in the morning and reallize I'm alone, and I to sleep without her in my arms. I wish I could feel something other than overwhelming sadness with a few okay moments thrown in there ( Read more... )

I never do things by the seat of my pants, the last thing I did on a whim was buy Theresa's Christmas present and where did that get me.....

Well, I've done it again and this time hopefully for the best. I got my credit card out and bought the tickets to go see my aunts and explore the possibilities of a life away from my past....

One last time ( Read more... )

How do I release this
How do I let you go
How do I mend my heart
When I feel so low
'N how do I talk to you
Without crying
How do I let you go
When I still love you
I still love you
Ya I still love you
-Melissa Ferrick

I woke up feeling strong

When you say good bye I fall to my knees

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Melissa Ferrick has changed my life!!!!!!!Jenny you have to come with us to see her in the spring because I have one word for you....DRIVE! Well, since I can't marry her I've decided to stalk her and pull a Michelle Williams by following her to every show she does. hehe. Ok not that realistic but this concert has really jsut changed my life. She ( Read more... )