i'm fighting the losing battle

[nonexistantcat]

today i choose the color of unhappy.

why can't i just be happy? or pretend to be happy? i mean, everybody knows that all i've wanted all year is to be with him again. so why doesn't it make me happy?

maybe because he doesn't want to be with me. maybe because the first time we see each other after a week of his absence he wants to stop by to see this

Comments

Dear Kristina,

[hapsad_secretz]

i miss and hart you ever soo much. i was skimming through my lj "old memories" and i was reading and everytime i was down or posted a meaningful poem you were always right there to help me. to give me great advice and i miss that. i miss you. so anyways back to the story. i found this one journal and you posted me a comment and then i posted one back to you. saying something along these lines:

"ilove you kristina you always make my day brighter. really. even when all i can see is darkness you come near me and my life brightens again. like you are my guardian angel"

and i cried for a minute and remembered "why am i crying...it's not like she's dead."

so i just thought i should let you know i miss you and what i said then is still soo very true now.

~Teresa

Re: Dear Kristina,

[nonexistantcat]

aww, my little tdog! don't you worry, i'm definately not dead, which means that neither is our friendship. we've got a wonderful year ahead of us, and i'm still here for you if you ever need me. i know i can sometimes be a drag, but i mean well. and i'm glad you and i are friends, because you're booby talk and all the laughter in your eyes when you talk such ways makes me smile all the way down to my heart. i love you, always have, always will.
~kristina

Re: Dear Kristina,

[hapsad_secretz]

I JUST CRIED. i love you too!

This post made me think of this song...

[pandadiva]

If you don't wanna love me, then I'll find somebody else who will
Find another kinda thrill, find another way to fill this loneliness