almost a year.. I still havent gone back and fixed all the dates on this thing.. it is one year off.. after this post I think. I dont know.

Oh how everything gets terribly confusing. I wanted to ask "what the hell were you thinking"and "who is she, and why are you messaging a girl you met at a sleazy bar who told you that you have an exotic face?"  but I didn't.... I wasn't even supposed to see those messages. I'm never supposed to see them, but I do.  Something needs to change, but I ( Read more... )

It's about time for me to move back to marshall. Yup. hmmm, i just don;t have a place to live.

it's 8:45 at night... thursday. I want to go somewhere and do something, but I don't know what. I begin my belly dancing lessons on monday with some girls I met.
I made a realization today. I need bigger balls.
and i also need to go back to counseling

My head off.

Today hasn't been too bad. I'm in the middle of watching a movie (which has been so rudely intereupted by this thing I call a job) Which I know most of my friends would love. It's call driving lessons, and it stars the same actor that plays Ron on Harry Potter. It's a great coming of age breaking away from your scaryily over christian mother. Its ( Read more... )

confusion haunts me
in a never done cycle
of sweet ups and downs.

"it's me or her" i said
he says he chose me.....
I'm glad I finally told him.
we'll see if it actually means anything.
I hate flikr photosharing....
especially his profile...
i saw it this morning
it just proved my point.

I'm tired, and things are falling apart all around me. I don't want my great job to end, but I really need school to start so I can have a fresh perspective on life and get some damn sleep. I listened to this song by lilly allen yesterday which talked about how everything is different than from how it looks on the outside, and I am finding out JUST ( Read more... )

how long has it been? Wow. A long time ( Read more... )