i wont come, why? i need it. that's why. i can never have the thing i want the most when im ready for it. i get a substitute, a false, and i pretend it's what i really want to be doing. like this computer, or TV. i just want to fall into sleep. where life isn't so bad anymore. is that so much to ask? just, sleep. i'm gonna try for the fourth time. ( Read more... )

yeah, im sick, and it really sucks. i wanna read a spiderman comic, but i dont have any... i would love for someone to just come and pet me, that's all i really have the energy for. just laying down and letting someone rub me. wow, the thought is even good. but i think im gonna go. but before that, i've worked 23 hours at hardee's this weekend. and ( Read more... )

so, it's been an akward few days, but here's what's on my mind. i just got a new job at hardees, and it's pretty cool so far. i didnt really do much and got paid for it. awesome! and i've decided that i think katie is ashamed of me, even though we're still friends, she won't even talk to me after school, so i know she's gonna see this so if she ( Read more... )

I heard you're doing okay ( Read more... )

look out your bedroom window, can you see the stars, how beautiful they are, i see them too, i feel like your here beside me, even though we're far apart, because no matter where we are, i'm with you, so take this letter i write today, fold it up tight put it away, because it says i'll always stay, until every strand of hair fades to gray, look at ( Read more... )

chorus ( Read more... )

im back and im glad to be here. i talked to katie last night for a good long while. and i asked her questions about me, and her and brent. even though it might kill me, i have to let her go. it's just that since me and her have become more than friends, all i've seemed to do is cause her stress and make her life worse. i know im a bad influence on ( Read more... )

do it. im not afraid. i wont run or hide. ill take it like a man. but i wont take it wothout a fight.

Well, we're back from the second parade. tonight was fun even though it was raining and cold. the floats were awesome, all of em had dragons and the first few blew fire. we caught a bunch of stuff and i got presents for my friends. yay! last night me and tyler were running up and down the parade route and getting all kindsa stuff. the 3 weirdest ( Read more... )

so yeah, tomorrow, im offically going to mardi-gras with tyler. ill be gone untill about sunday afternoon and my phone wont make it that far south, but, i will have a blat and bring back an asston of beads for my friends. right now im at tyler's and im taking a break from perfect dark, i love that game. i haven't played it since the n64 was in her ( Read more... )