halloween fucking sucks cock.

i cried today.

i'm such a fucking douche.

why is everything falling apart?

WOOO starbucks! i am HYPER ( Read more... )

garret came home a week ago today (friday). he started school in holland wednesday, huge surprise to everyone, even him. things are REALLY awkward between him and tyler. i feel awful, like i'm stuck in the middle. it's really depressing. and i feel selfish for wanting him there so badly when he's unhappy and stuff. blah. everything sucks, as usual.

i've been pretty much avoiding writing lately. i guess without garret here, something's just missing, i just don't have the heart to write anymore. blah ( Read more... )

Kristine called me and gave me her phone number today. she didn't have a phone before, they just got it hooked up, so she gave me the number and all.

yea.

feelings suck and stuff.

the light shower of rain puts me in a pensive mood.
a sense of nostalgia holds hands with the meloncholy, drizzly days.
the road stretches on and never ends, and i'll remain in your front seat,
not caring that we're dying. we're all moribund, and we never even realize it.
or maybe life's too short long empty for that to even matter.

ugh. well i was supposed to take tyler to temple today in The Truck, but his mom's being a whore and making him do shit so he can't go until tomorrow. but we can't take The Truck tomorrow. maybe i'll get dad to let me meet him in holland or something though, save him a little gas at least. but yea. i was all dressed and ready and everything, and ( Read more... )

the morning after is always the worst.

reading old letters...

crying in the dark...

playing that same old song,
over and over...

((and the air feels so cold on my torn flesh...))