so im nervous truely an utterly nervous, for the first time in my life things are going so good, i have everything i could ever of asked for, im afraid i wont be able to support myself, im afraid i wont get a good job soon enough an i wont be able to support me an meganwhen the time comes that i need to, im afraid we will be living in waterside for ( Read more... )

fuck people seriously fuck them all, well most of them, like do not tell me one thing thewn at the very very last milisecond change ur fucking mind, thats so fucked up, i am so hurt an so pissed off right now like i seriously wanna jus give up an walk away from you, because u fucking pull this shit all the fucking time, i try to be as understanding ( Read more... )

i fucking hate feeling sick, i cant fucking stand it, i hate the fact that this shit lingers in my body an wont go the hell away, i can barely breath i can barely hear, i hate being def, i seriously would rather give up my sight then be def ( Read more... )

so lets see i dont have to to much news lets see. the last two days have been amazing megan slept over saturday into sunday, we woke up at 630 she went home an i went back to sleep, woke up showered an shaved and made sure i looked good because afterwork megan picked me up an we went to her parents house for dinner. so nervous, here here i am ( Read more... )

im not to quite sure what to write about, but i feel the need to update this cause i haven't really done so in ages, life is pretty normal i guess, i work my shtty barely scrappin by job everyday i see my amazing girlfriend when i can, the band is going good except were trying out new drummers, been hanging out with kyle more, his new girlfriend ( Read more... )

for once in my life i am completely and utter happy with everything that is going on in my life

ok i havent written anything in a week or so i apologize its been a chaotic week. lets recap shall we, last tues me and meagn finally became a couple that was a good thing, weds i worked all day and all night but gave my notice at pepsi, good and bad thing i guess, thursday we went and surprised megan at work, and then went to see dezzy, that was ( Read more... )

3 years ago today megan called me drunk as hell and poured her heart out to me, 3 years its been since ive known that she wanted me, 3 years that i made her wait will i got my life in check and my head straight, well 3 years later to the day she first asked me out we have made it offical, we are dating and are finally a couple after everything me ( Read more... )

got the itch to write something new, to write something not so happy, not so sappy, not so loveing, i can only do that so much, and then the world shows inside of me and i have to let it out ( Read more... )

Here in this diary I write you visions of my summer ( Read more... )