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[noooooorlopp]

I finally figured myself out. I have had such a hard time meeting people at school, because deep down I don't want to meet new people. I see it like this: I have a bunch of friends that I have had for many years. Those are the people that know me inside and out. They are the ones that can make me laugh and bring about good memories. I have

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[icatchfireflies]

oh, rach. if you have new friends, that absolutely does not mean that you give less of yourself to the ones you already have. i mean, take me for example. i go away every summer and work with a bunch of amazing people, who are now some of my best friends. but just because i'm close to someone like...julia, let's say...doesn't make me any less of a friend to you, or make me love you any less. don't worry about how to distribute yourself and your love, it will distribute itself. you're not going to love your new friends any more than the ones you already have, and you're not going to love the ones you already have any less because you went out and found some more. you can't really compare the friendships, because they are completely different.

don't think of us as growing apart, welcome this as an experience that can help you strengthen the friendships you already have, while making new ones.

damnit. i have more to write. i have to go take a test. more to come later.

[icatchfireflies]

as much as we would all like to go to the same school sometimes, it's impossible. rach, i think you just need to remember that you are definitely not the only one who feels like this. you're just one of the only ones to actually admit to it. as long as you keep in touch with all the people you care about and still put effort into the relationships you already have, you have nothing to worry about. the friendships that were meant to go on will continue. there's always that possibility that some won't, but that's sometimes just how things pan out. it is bound to happen with some of these relationships some time or another; now may just be that time. it doesn't necessarily mean that you will 'lose' that person completely, but it may just mean that things are moving on. for now, we all need to be apart for a while. this experience is going to help all of us grow and develop as people, and that is a beneficial thing for everyone. i know it's hard sometimes, but this is just another stage in our lives that we have to deal with

[frommgenizzle]

I feel the same way at times but then I realize that we can't live in the past. And we're still friends and that's all that matters!

[kimlovescarbs]

i'm the same way with not wanting to grow up (mine's more so w/ myself and life- not old friends), but it sadly needs to be done