I'm kinda excited about something, I don't know where it will lead, or what is going to happen to get there, but I think I like it. My stomach is nervious and my heart is racing. It's not just a scared nervious, but a good nervious, a happy nervious. I think what I think is true, but I'm not sure. I hope it is, cause maby it will make me happy ( Read more... )

everything [Oct. 9th, 2005|05:27 pm] [ mood | ( Read more... )

So maby it's all good now.....or maby I'm just dreaming and hoping it is, but really it's not.  :( I don't really know. I dont really know much of anything anymore.

I guess I'm just not good enough for you anymore. Thats makes me sad! What happened? If I did something, tell me, I just hate not knowing.

I am being reminded of earlier times where I wanted so bad to get out of this life I'm in. I never thought I would feel like that again, Guess I was wrong!

__________ I thought I could count on you to help me ( Read more... )

You think you know me but you really have no idea who I really am. If you do, then you obviously don't see how I'm feeling, and see that what you are doing (or not doing) is killing me inside! I hate it, I need to say something, but since you know me, you should know that I never say anthing. I keep it all in till it's so painfull I break down and ( Read more... )

I expected more from you. I guess I shouldn't have.!  I really thought I could count on you, now I realize I'm only here when it's convenient for you, like I'm your last option or something. Well FUCK that shit, I got bigger thing to deal with than you!

MITSCH SAID,"IT'S CALLED BE QUIET!!!!" NOW ALL I NEED IS TO SEE THAT J-LO JUMPSUITE AND I WILL HAVE HAD THE BEST YEAR EVER! HAHAHAHAHAHA

I JUST WANT TO CRY!!! I can't take it anymore! I'm seriousley going to breakdown in about 2 seconds! I need to talk to people, I need to say whats on my mind, I need to let it all out. But I'm not going to, why, because I just don't go around saying what's on my mind, or whats wrong with me, cause if I do no one would listen or care anyways. So i ( Read more... )

That's just messed up. Really! Seriousley!

I will never be able to say all that is on my mind, I'm just not that type of person to say what I am thinking. I don't like saying what I'm feeling cause I'm affraid I'll hurt or lose someone that I care about. I know I shouldn't let what others do effect what I do, but it's so hard not to.  I just don't know what to do. I'm so out of it! I just ( Read more... )