So yeah, eh it's been a while. I've been busy being S-O-R-E. My body is old. I'm old. Why did I join Roller Derby again? Oh yeah to keep me sane. That's right. Seriously. I've never done anything this physically taxing in my life. My progress has been painfully slow. Humbling is a nice way of putting it. There are 4 tape levels in the division I'm ( Read more... )

I emailed my doctor yesterday morning and a nurse called me in a bit of a panic to immediately come in for labs and a visit. I called Chris and told him and he met me at the hospital. How sweet. He's been worried about me ( Read more... )

Rough weekend. II tried to just tell myself I was having an incredibly long horrible period, but by Friday night it was pretty clear I was having a miscarriage. I should be encouraged. The last time I was pregnant was 2007. I haven't come right out and said it and Chris hasn't asked. He's just been trying to keep me comfortable. Other than feeling ( Read more... )

Haven't posted in a cuppa mainly because I've been feeling sorry for myself for the last month. Not only have I gone completely anovulatory, but last month I had a 13 day period. 9 dry days before starting all over again. This month I'm on day 19...still going strong. You'd think I would have bled to death and died by now. I emailed my doctor about ( Read more... )

So I had this long email written out for my doctor yesterday and the server blipped and I lost it. It was a sign. I wasn't supposed to tell her off...not yet ( Read more... )

What day is it? Oh yeah...June 1st. I'm still not pregnant. I had a complete meltdown the other night. Poor Chris. He doesn't know what to do. I don't know what to do. Nobody knows what to do. Ugh. It's so heartbreaking ( Read more... )

Yesterday it was like I had boundless energy! I took a couple of short walks with my coworkers I've been walking with them for about a month. I'm only now able to keep up with them without being completely out of breath the whole time (They're both in really good shape). I powered through an hour long yoga class. The only time I had to step out of ( Read more... )

Well Chris has been working out all week. Last night he was complaining about being so sore and I was like well hope you're unsore around the 20th okay? (predicted LH surge) He said he was trying to be less tired and have more vigor since 1/2 of my infertility problem sadly is his fault. More on this later ( Read more... )

Well I caved on Saturday and sent flowers to my mother for Mother's Day. I had been going back and forth since I've gotten home about what to do. I'm sure it will change nothing, but it did appease my own self loathing so I guess I did it for me. I got a confirmation of delivery email from FTD. Good enough. My brother called me last night to wish ( Read more... )

I've been fighting a cold. It's not too bad-just achy with an annoying cough. I've been dosing myself with Zicam and Gypsy Cold Care tea. That shit's the bomb. Everyone around me is practically dying with this flu/cold/death sickness and I'm mildly ill on the fringes ( Read more... )