last two days at work have worn me down, big time, and I am in for 9 fucking hours tomorrow, my back is killing me, I am knackered, and my feet hurt, and I am majorly fucked off. altho I am currently on a major caffiene high, so thats something. I will need to be in the morning coz I'm in again for 9 fucking hours. kill. have just sorted out ( Read more... )

I'd just like to say thankyou so much to everyone for coming on Monday, it meant so much to me that you all came, so thankyou :) and as I've said to some of you, coming back to the Church Hall and you all being there was just what I needed. so thankyou. it was a nice service, helped me (not to mention Mum and the rest of the family) remember the ( Read more... )

ok then...

reckon we'd better get those plans finalised Tara! lol.

ok, so calmer now...the post mortem didn't happen, Mum produced the biopsy reports from Leicster, and the twat (coroner) was happy with it. so thats good. we might not have been able to protect him from the cancer but we protected him from this. and we have kept his dignity in tact. not that I did anything. and not that he knows we did. but we did ( Read more... )

well, we just had phonecall from the coroners office. guess what? because Dads illness was an industrial one (ie by asbestos when he wokred for ICI) they are going to do an inquest with a post mortem. and we can't refuse it. they need to check if it was maesothelioma Dad died of! I mean there is so much fucking documentation from the hospital! and ( Read more... )

well...where to start. I need to get this shit outta my system, so sorry in adavnce...for those who don't know, Dad died at 8pm on Friday night. he wasn't in pain, and when he went, he looked so peaceful. it hasn't totally sunk in yet but it's starting to. it's just so weird. and yet...there's a kind of relief there too, because towards the end he ( Read more... )

I have just had to help Dad up the stairs so he can go to bed...for those of you who know my house and my stairs, he had to stop about 4 times on the way up...I hate seeing him suffer like this. he just looks like he doesn't wanna go on. this may sound like an awful thing to say, but I wish he didn't have to suffer like this, I wish he didnt have ( Read more... )