so, a little flashback...the morning of Dad's funeral, Mum opens the mail. a card arrives from someone. Mum is...to put it mildly, very pissed off. she says "I'm gonna go and shred this now." and I disspear upstairs (I dont remember what for) and I never actually saw Mum put the card through the shredder. I remember thinking to myself "ok, so I'm a ( Read more... )

last bit first...to the slimy piece of shit that passed on a certain bit of information to a certain someone, fuck you. you are an insensetive asshole, and I thought I could trust you, but I was obviously wrong. I think I know who you are, but I'm not sure, which is why I haven't put any names. whoever it was had better stay the fuck outta my way. ( Read more... )

ever feel like everything is your fault, even though you haven't actually done anything wrong and you know it, but you still feel guilty for it? like when something happens with someone and they suddenly stop talking to you and shit, like deleting the link to your profile from theirs on faceparty, and setting it up so you lose the link to their ( Read more... )

may have something to do with the fact I didnt get to sleep till 4 this morning. fuck knows why, I was in bed just after 11. so I've been falling asleep randomly all day. which is pissing annoying. went into town with mum for a bit, and saw Hannah from the cafe I was in, and then later saw Hannah and Lou who walked straight past me (thanks guys lol ( Read more... )

subject says it all really. I feel like shit today, and I dont know why it's come on so suddenly. just been shopping with Mum, and that was hard. it shouldnt have been. plus I feel like I am doing nothing, going nowhere with my life. I know it'll get better but that thought is fuck all comfort at the mo. although kinda relieved I didnt end up drunk ( Read more... )

will someone please fucking tell me why the nice girls are all either spoken for or only want to be friends? fuck me, I'm gonna end up with a total psycho, I know it. example...Hannah, good match for me, nice girl, we're into the same things, we get on well...thinks I'm "ace and a good friend"...and doesn't wanna be anything more. sorry to moan ( Read more... )

ok, so I have been to the pub the last two nights, and I've been drunk both times. and I hate myself for it, I hate being drunk and I hate feeling like crap the next day. I hate spending so much cash there too but once I have had one, for some reason I just keep thinkin "oh one more won't hurt"....and I think I offended someone in there last night ( Read more... )

ok so I cant even click the right mood thing. argh. fucking hell.

ok, someone sent me these lyrics ages ago and I cant remember who wrote them, so if it was you could you tell me please? coz I've written some music and a chorus to go with them, and I was wondering if whoever wrote them would mind me using them. thanks. they also kinda sum up how I'm feeling (well,about one thing at the moment) anyway here they ( Read more... )

well ok I'm lying but I wanted to put in a bad joke somewhere. well people, the news is this...No Real Reason (ie me, and possibly Dave, although we havent talked about it yet) are live and acoustic at the Arena Cafe in Market Rasen, on...ok I don't know the date, but it's the Xmas Market (when they turn on the lights and there are random rides/ ( Read more... )