just one more issue..

[nos4a2]

RainShm: i fucking knew you were going to do that to me K, i knew it. argh so goddamn transparent and i just fucking convinced myself it was nothing.. but i fucking saw that a mile away.. always has been about you.. always

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[just_a_chick_03]

wow, they just sounded really disappointed that their expectations werent being met. Like they wanted to push you into what they wanted and call it something else. That it was all "you" but its really the other way around.

[nos4a2]

i have no idea what the case was in this instance other than a woman who thinks she knows me completely after meeting me just a few scant months ago... thinks she has all the answers and doesn't really care to hear my feelings on them...

but yeah she can be self-absorbed.. imho

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[just_a_chick_03]

I have had people react to me that way too, they dont really know you but want to control you, so they tell you who you are and if you object, you are just in denial.
mindfuckers!

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[nos4a2]

isn't that irony of the situation?

her two months in my presence occasionally has completely revealed to her WHAT i need, WHO i am, WHY i am hiding, and HOW i need to live my life...

where as my 28 years in this shell has offered me NO self-cognizance what so ever...

so glad this happened because i really couldn't have handled someone not telling me exactly how things were anymore...

and frankly i am not in denial, i am just pissed off that she had the nerve to make it easier on her by using my sexuality (or rather her perception of it) as a decision cornerstone.

[zombiegirl]

mmhh...don't you think it might just end up being a sterile conversation anyway? I mean there are little cha,ges at time in that conversation, then it goes back to the begining..
I'm really sorry for you dear, I just hope she was not so hung up to her perception of you, or reflecting a pre-made image of a male on you...
maybe she's gonna change her mind...let's just hope so.

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[nos4a2]

i know the conversation fluxs.. i have a hard time staying mad at ppl.. hence the cracking of jokes right after i blew up...

she thinks she has me figured out, and she think i am in denial over it.. catch-22 like i mentioned....

[so_serendipity]

uck.
how frustrating of a "conversation".

This is all stuff you know but I'm going to say it anyway:
Not every guy who moves to Wrigleyville is gay. It is known as "gayville" but plenty of people live there who aren't homosexual. It's automatically assuming that because someone lives in Toronto, they must listen to and like Gordon Lightfoot. The world isn't that black&white. To further this point, I knew and dated a man who lived in Wrigleyville who was straight. He was a CUBS fan

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[nos4a2]

well i just don't see how liking the area off of Clark and Belmont should have been a deciding factor.. *rolls eyes* just reminds me of Capitol Hill in Seattle to be honest.
sexuality is not defined by geography my goodness. i mean to be honest i might never step into one dance club near there.. i am not really the dancing type.. LOL...

in a way it is almost like K spent so much time trying to convince herself more than me about how things were... interesting thought..

[moowazz]

I didn't even finish the conversation, but from what I read and from comments I have one thing to say. People need to learn that just because something is not within THEIR realm of possibility, does not mean that it DOES NOT exist!

I hope that made sense.

:)~

Smile and live on.

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[nos4a2]

well it could go both ways.. what you said rather..

[moowazz]

You're right, it could go both ways, the funny thing, I was meaning that directed towards her though.

:)~

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[nos4a2]

ah, i see...