The last real entry here was a decade ago. Seems that periodically reminding myself of where i once was continues to be a healthy occupation of mine from time to time. I wrote on LJ between 2001 to 2007, and they were some of the best years of my life. But fuck they are harrowing to read as a middle aged man with very different eyes that they see ( Read more... )

the last previous entry to this journal was approximately 10 years ago. That is so hard to believe when I stop this think about it. A whole decade has come and gone with so many changes that it would be impossible for me to even quantify them here in a reasonable manner ( Read more... )

i just wrote this beautifully poetic entry describing how amazing my new year began...

and the damn thing is lost now.

*sob*

i suppose now i will have to go and rethink again, because there is no way i could even attempt to duplicate that entry.

i found Jesus yesterday ( Read more... )

my capacity to love is far too great than the need for me to love. i could fall in love with the world and live my life curled up in a ball in some corner in Manchurian or the ruined temple of Knossos, writhing in angst over my decision ( Read more... )

the main issue is where do i start.. good or bad? should i just lump the past five days into one long and drawn out mess or give it to you in small bite-size pieces?

• finding new/old friends
  
• turkey less holidays
  
• the meaning of friendship
  
• best birthday for the last decade
  
• strangeness
  
• realizations in house cleaning
  
• the loveliness of late night phone ( Read more... )

...to get me to drive all the way out here to make a post because i am so pissed off. I need to vent and i have enough time before Matt shows up to do just that ( Read more... )

i left home when i was almost 16 so my late teenage years were tainted. i was more concerned with pay rent then being able to go to homecoming or prom when the time came. but still there are some awesome memories

• spending countless hours in far too many coffeehouse..
  • sitting in Denny's drinking horrible coffee and gigantic plates of nachos...
  • ( Read more... )

RainShm: i fucking knew you were going to do that to me K, i knew it. argh so goddamn transparent and i just fucking convinced myself it was nothing.. but i fucking saw that a mile away.. always has been about you.. always ( Read more... )

This is just part of the greater history of Gary... i wrote this in an email to a friend, i have quoted the important parts verbatim just because i think it is beautiful phrased.. i hope she won't mind.
I grew up in a small town, did i mention that before? Probably not, although i should have since that is truly the stage for who i am, at least one ( Read more... )