I spent most of the day thinking of a woman from my D&D group, mostly all the reasons we don't fit together but still feeling that I want her. Also I insulted my ex tonight the one I still might have feeling for but I think just the words I used pissed her off, no matter how I try I just make it worse with her ( Read more... )

I just watched "professor Marston and the wonder woman" and it was just an amazing movie for a few reasons at least. on reason it was great was that the movie depicted a three way relationship (polyamorous) between two woman and a man, each loving each other not just submissive to the man. Another reason is the explanation of D.I.S.C. Dominance (D ( Read more... )

First off it has been a really long time since I posted here I am not sure who still reads this but her goes. I am the head of a Dungeons and Dragons group and today one of our members who was gone for the holidays came back and i was trying my hardest not to stare at her ( Read more... )

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It is hard to think that I might be so obsessed with someone especially when I feel sad about a loss of a vehicle. To explain, I first must tell you I have no chance with her because she moved on and is completely ignoring me for the benefit of her partner. What I mean the loss I will feel at the selling of a vehicle is that all my fondest memories ( Read more... )

Vegetarian, I think not ( Read more... )

My first thoughts in this journal are of Amy Parry, how in high school she was one of the only girls who actual had an interest in me and I was really blind by my own self loathing to even recognize even the slightest bit of her attention, even when at a dance she came forward and asked me to dance with her and I refused out of fear ( Read more... )

OK so i really feeling depressed today, but not for the usual reasons. I can't cry, i was listening to one of my favorite songs and I felt so bad. So bad in fact I wanted to cry to just feel something and I can't any more. The very fact that I can't cry is depressing me so much, to the fact I really do feel low and just down right unimportant about ( Read more... )

An old friend, well maybe more like a used to be friend, hmmm, well a lot of friends are not old used to be friends. Anyway I was thinking of what my life is actually spiraling toward and I can't see an answer. I do care or I would not put so much effort into my job, though I dislike the company I work for the site I work at is really nice I putt a ( Read more... )

It comes to me as I watch the sun rise and the sky crimson red as if the very earth was bleeding I think to my self that if the human race was wiped off the face of the earth I would not even in the slightest feel pity for them. I have though of my self as an Alien so much of the last few years that the only thing I feel in common with the human ( Read more... )