Something's gotta be said for the shift in my behaviour; where I used to just give into morally compromising situations, I test the edge and retreat. Not because...not because I've lost something, but I know that it doesn't get me much farther ahead and the sickness I feel the morning after is more than I'm willing to pay for it ( Read more... )

Today I remembered that he loved me, and, I don't know what to do with that realization.

He'd talk to me and smile, sitting on the edge of the bathtub.
He'd make me dinner on the beach with fresh basil, tomatoes, and mozzarella.
He'd listen when my family failed me.

What do you do when you know the person who inspires a fear you can't run from, ( Read more... )

Today I remembered that he loved me, and, I don't know what to do with that realization.

He'd talk to me and smile, sitting on the edge of the bathtub.
He'd make me dinner on the beach with fresh basil, tomatoes, and mozzarella.

Playing, as an album (not on shuffle, you bastard iPod generation...) plus...cooking, gardens, sneezes, warmth, cafés, people, messy rooms, convoluted relationships, isolation, and sunburns ( Read more... )

Things that are temprorary ( Read more... )

My grandfather is in the hospital, has been since Saturday, because he is increasingly disoriented.

God help us now.

..."baby they'd beat you bloody - your tight pants and jean jacket - who do you think you are? You think you're punk? You're twenty fucking years late, idiot. They'd all fucking hate you."I was standing outside some asshole restaurant, Livia and someone else were peeing. A drunk 40 year old woman motioned to me through the dark glass to come in ( Read more... )

Here is an embedded photograph of my car.


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I want to be knowledgeable in general electric, plumbing, carpentry, mechanic, first aid, nutritional, tailoring, and blacksmithing matters. I want a dog, and to build a canopy of wisteria over my back yard and see it bloom, I want to share the feeling I get during the bridge of the Pixies' cover of I Can't Forget and Me Gustas Tú by Manu Chao. I ( Read more... )

Jessica
Helen
Margi
Maren
Andrew James
Four
Max
Sonya
Rico
Christopher
And more helpful, not crazy people to come.
Good lord, some people just dig until they find drama.
My new project is to let them dig their holes-
-Without me!