i am in a complete 'fuck the world' mood. i have been up since 7:45 this morning and it seems as though every ignorant fucker has crossed my path. i DO NOT have the patience whatsoever. i am tired, irritated, pissy and have to fucking clean. again. i think what's really pissing me off right now is that i ALWAYS wind up doing the fucking dishes. ( Read more... )

I don't understand why it has to be money that makes the world go 'round. Why do people make money the most important object in their lives? I just don't get it. Yes, it is nice to have money. It's even more nice when you have some left over to splurge every once in a while! But in my case I don't have that opportunity and haven't had the ( Read more... )

I've been in and out of my own little world lately. For some odd reason a new found hatred towards Scott and my mother has grown inside of me. I thought I was okay with what they have done to me and how they've treated me but one day something 'snapped' inside of me. I realized that I wasn't okay with it and that I really haven't been this whole ( Read more... )

Not a lot has been going on. I started working at Charlotte Russe last Friday and it kind of sucked. I'm not used to retail and girls are catty! This past weekend was so stressful and I'm glad it's over and done with. Other than that..not a lot.

I automatically assume that when Will gets off of work that he's coming over. I've done this several times only to be disappointed. I know he has to have his own life and I have to have mine but at the moment nothing else makes me happy but him. Reading doesn't make me happy anymore. Drawing, painting and writing doesn't make me happy anymore. I ( Read more... )

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Do You ;

:x: wish you could live somewhere else: NOLA
:x: think about suicide: I TRY NOT TO
:x: believe in online dating: NEGATIVE
:x: think others find you attractive: I SUPPOSE
:x: want more piercings: YES
:x: like cleaning: NO BUT I'LL DO IT
:x: like roller coasters: DEPENDS
:x: write in cursive or print: PRINT

For or Against ;

:x: long ( Read more... )

...is where I'm going.

It's barely 2pm and I'm already starting on a glass of wine. With a touch of pain killers. Do I think life is that miserable to do these things? Possibly. It does help me calm down  quite a lot. I've been feeling so much these past few weeks and it's becoming unbearable. I wish and wish that I could become callous, become as ( Read more... )