...I'm done with being pathetic. Not quite done with sad yet, but pathetic is over with. I *think* I can even see a faint glimpse of the future over thataways ( Read more... )

I expect I shall need to write a full entry at some point. For now have a vague expression of my inner turmoil punctuated with sentiments of gaining the required closure I've needed for some time and it all being for the best in the end. I do hate 'for the best' almost always really sucking though. Brain go boom boom. I want to sleep.

You may have noticed I had a shit day yesterday. It made me miss my local pub buddies. Craig (obviously), the Ians and Mackle and Balles. Theres noting like escaping to the local after a shit day. For a start at the local you're allowed to be in a shit mood wheras in town you must be happy happy. Thems the rules. But also in the case of the guys ( Read more... )

At uni every bit of software I needed wasn't working. So I spent 7 hours getting increasingly frustrated before finally giving in and going home having achieved fuck all. I'd have been no worse off for just taking the whole damn day off only my mental health may have been better ( Read more... )

Good afternoon all ( Read more... )

An since yeah, everyone else seems to ( Read more... )

The other PhD students are shit....but I've been out last night and had a great time and tonight, well, the crowd wasn't ideal, I seemed to be out with, well, the Bridget Jones brigade for want of a better descriptive term but I did actually have a good time! Plus, I think I'm meeting a less dull looking PhDer tomorrow (hes the same age as me ( Read more... )

Theres much I need to update, but I cant be arsed so here's todays events ( Read more... )

By which I of course mean I'm stressed off my tits. Mostly money stuff I guess. Christmas is coming, I'm off to Norwich since they bizarrely offered me a PhD after what must have been my worst interview ever, and I've got social commitments all over the place. I cant afford any of these things. At all. This is going to be the worst Christmas ( Read more... )

I'm really not happy at the minute. I think its been about a decade since I was miserable enough to not even be able to force a smile when I'm out with people.

I dislike it. Lets make sure it doesn't last too long eh. I've got a cringe worthy reputation as a grinning idiot to maintain.