New journal: toxicpoisonx.

So. The daydreaming needs to stop. It's really not helping.

So. I like making money. But I don't like working. My job sucks. I'm not getting paid enough. I don't have set hours. But it's still a job. I'm working thirty hours this week. Opening Monday and Tuesday. Oh joy. =/ And to top it all off, either this week or next week is Cory's last week. =[ I think the worst part of this whole thing is that I spend ( Read more... )

So. My mom needs to learn how to listen. Today, she learned that I was single. All I have to say is, what the fuck? I told her we broke up the weekend it happened. But no, something didn't click. She thought we were still dating and he was being an asshole by not calling. Well, he is being an asshole, but whatever. I don't understand her sometimes ( Read more... )

So. I feel like a stranger. I feel like a stranger in my own house. I feel like a stranger in the town I grew up in. I feel like I no longer fit it. I feel like I'm intruding in my friends' lives. This doesn't feel like home anymore. It's the weirdest feeling. And it's freaking me out. I don't know if I can take this for over three more months. ( Read more... )

So. A few comments on the phone left me thinking. Although some of the conversation seemed forced and awkward, some also made it seem like old times. We just talked about trivial, bullshit stuff. But one comment has left me so confused. He said he'd call me tomorrow on his lunch break. When I reminded him I'd also be at work and definitely couldn't ( Read more... )

So. The stupidest things upset me these days. I mean, it's not the end of the world. Damn mood swings from hell.

So. Miscommnication can go suck a fuck. Channelle told me she talked to Michael today, and he said he's waiting for me to call him back. And all I have to say is WTF? I'm not the one that said, "I'll call you later." But whatever. I guess I'll call him tomorrow afternoon sometime. Hopefully the conversation won't be too awkward. Yeah right.

So. I think I called him every single insult I could think of today. And even made up some new ones. Freaked my brother out a bit in the car. Lol. It was like some crazy mood swing. I was depressed all day. Then out of nowhere, BAM! pissed as hell. And then I was uber depressed again once we got to my dad's. He kept trying to get me to talk in the ( Read more... )

So. I'll call you later. I wish I knew exactly how long "later" actually was.