After so long, I finally succumbed to the urge that I could no longer fight. Its been since November, and then all the while with you, the thought of you gave me strength. That strength has been replaced with a void and I had nothing left in me to fight the urges. It seems to take too much to get me to the breaking point of crying for myself or my ( Read more... )

I feel as if I'm being covered by the familiar shelter of a blanket, but its cold and emptiness I feel within it. Its not like I havent felt this before, but perhaps not on this scale. Its the familiar hollow feeling of loss of hope and broken hearts. I did everything I knew how to do, and I am still fighting for you, but on your wishes, I'm doing ( Read more... )

this is a pseudo update,...just letting anyone who actually reads this thing know that i've moved my blog to myspace. http://www.myspace.com/collegegrluwf is where you can find updates and more..oh joy

Well my spring break wasnt much of a break, the little bit of time i had off, i spent with Marc. The highlight of my week was when we went to the zoo on wednesday and we checked out a truck for him. He's looking to get a 2000 Chevy Silverado 1500, candy apple red...gorgeous truck...gonna try to talk the guy down from 10,500 to about 9 or 9500...we' ( Read more... )

you wanna hear something that really pissed me off ( Read more... )

Wow am i sick! i feel like shiiiiiitttttt!!!!!!!! Friday i was fine, asthma bothering me a little because it went from hot to cold overnight, thursday night/friday morning, then one of the RA's on staff was sick and i was talking to her for a bit. Then Marc and i went to Vallarta (which i love) then walmart because hey, thats what we do. Then i ( Read more... )

Writing this entry from a hotel lobby since i DEFINATELY have something to bitch about ( Read more... )

Hey everyone....not too much going on in my life to bitch about, but im bored as of right now...so thats why im posting..cuz i remembered i haven't done it in ages...i know..i know...i've been greatly missed *coughcough* Lets see...classes are going well...all the classes i thought i was doin bad it...looks like i'll probably get no lower than a C ( Read more... )

It'll be 2 months with Marc tomorrow...so crazy how fast time flies by...it doesnt seem like its been that long..and i wouldn't trade it for a thing. Last night we talked about why he loved me and he seriously gave me a 15 minute speech on the reasons he loves me and i wanted to cry, it was so sweet. One of his reasons was really sweet, but funny ( Read more... )

its sooooooo nice to be happy ...and to be happy like ...ALLLLL the time...its almost unnatural. Its crazy how being with someone you love and that loves you can completely change your life. He has to work 12am-4am tonight, but thats ok because when he's done he'll come over and it'll all be ok from there. Its so strange to me because usually i ( Read more... )