Ma-kun is having surgery. The cancer is still there.. in his lungs.. it made me finally quit smoking. Neji is staying with us for now. It doesn't look good for fucking Ma-kun at all. I don't know what to do for either of them. Maiko has really been doing the care taking. I still don't know what the fuck I'm doing half the time. She's a good ( Read more... )

Maiko is cute as a mother. Yeah, I used the word 'cute'. She seems happy, and as long as she stays that way then I'll be happy too. In fact, recently, that's all it's been about. Wanting to keep her happy. Not that she's a bitch or anything. I just... heh... found someone that's worth wanting to take care of ( Read more... )

It's taken me some time to get this shit up here. I suck at updating this fucking thing. Haven't talked to you guys in ages but Maiko and I are together.. and things are great... sort of. Kyo is a cute kid. He looks like me. He'll be a real lady killer when he grows up. I'll teach him how to be suave. HOwever the fuck it's spelled ( Read more... )

Maiko's due really soon. We finaly picked a fuckin name for the kid. I didn't think that was ever gonna happen. I've been spending all my free time outside of work with her... and yeah.. bought her a ring. Nothing big, I mean... you know.. small gem.. promise ring i think it's called or some shit. We're back together... yeah.. I like her. I ( Read more... )

Bought Maiko-hime something today after months of saving. Don't expect it to go well. We'll see.

Maiko-hime has a belly like fucking buddah. It's fun to rub. Things are pretty fucking cool now that she's through .. well past that fuckin throwin shit up stage. Been thinkin about .. asking her out.. on a date.. you know.. heh.

Been spending a shit-load of time with Maiko-hime. Gotta. I'm gonna be a fucking dad. And well not just that. I wanna. I wanna be with her but.. well that's probably not an option for me thanks to screwing up so many months ago. But I'm gonna fucking be here for her. And I'll be a better dad than my old man was ( Read more... )

Spent my birthday with a very pregnant Maiko-hime. Had a good time tho. Was sober on my fuckin birthday for the first time in maybe 10 years. That was a new experience.

My bandmates are assholes. Thanks for the gifts. Heh.

Ken and Ma-kun invited me over to tell me Ma-kun has fuckin cancer. Yeah, some fuckin scary shit that is. I dont know what the fuck to do for him though. I told em to call me if they needed anything but fuck now I feel like I need to be doin somethin.

A fucking dad. Who the fuck isn't doin' their job up there by lettin me fuckin procreate. Heh. Yeah took Maiko to the appt last Friday. She's havin a boy and .. I'm gonna be a fucking father. I can't get over this shit.