I went to the doctor and they ran all sorts of blood tests. they think I have mono, odd things going on with my thyroid, gall bladder and i have an elevated white blood cell count. I dont think Ill be back at school for a while. I just want to take a nap... Oh and Im as of 5 minutes from now banned from lj forever.( as my mom puts it "the one step

Maybe it only happens once in a lifetime, but I just experienced that occasion where everything is beautiful, and perfect. Simply wonderful and I feel relieved and happy and simply enlightened. It was more than I anticipated, It was deeply spiritual and now just a blur of smiles, tears, and perfection.

When you can honestly prove that Mother Teresa is a bad person, its hard to still have faith in the human race.

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Im starting to find a passion for music, maybe its just that Im actually starting to find stuff with good lyrics and good music. Its nice to finally begin to ( Read more... )

its like diabetes
where when you are first diagnosed
your insulin still comes in spurts
and thats almost worse
than if it
were
never
there
at
all

I feel a little bit hated, a little bit misunderstood, a little bit burnt out, a little bit unloved, a little bit not good enough, a little bit useless and completely and totally unfulfilled and unfulfilling.

I am a dreamer

and its pathetic

"Watch the water dance, it floats for a moment
and then turns to mist" She says eyes aglow
and I want to be twisting and twirling
again around the fountain

"how can we know the dancer from the dance"Even crepes make me think of you ( Read more... )

The incumbent indignance of the alsoran ( Read more... )

Sometimes you have those days where everything feels so trivial, and you have to question your priorities. And then question the purpose of having priorities, because why not spend all day giggling and "having fun with friends". Would it be so crazy if having fun to me was when I find an intense book or intense project to throw myself into. It ( Read more... )

Sometimes I worry that I cant live up to the hype
surrounding the human race
and I doubt the choices I make
and then doubt my doubting
because Im just so lonely
but when Im in your company
it seems I become a moving target for
your jabbering aims at conversation
and then theres you I dont know whether I want you or I want to be you ( Read more... )