My dad died on March 24, 2003 and yet life goes on. It feels kinda strange to realize I'm not gonna see him again. Actually it really sucks. I wish it hadn't happen, I wish I could see him again, but I know that no amount of wishing can change this. I really love the man and I miss him so much it hurts. At least I have no regrets. I always told him ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm feeling much better. My mom took me out to dinner...well she watched me eat, but it got me out of the house. But the best part is she took me to "toys 'R' us" and I got to look around. *singing* "I don't want to grow up, I'm a Toys R Us kid, theres a million toys at Toys R Us that I can play with..." Ok so I couldn't but anything, but ( Read more... )

Why shouldn't i cry if i feel like it? And why shpuldn't i feel like it when you tell me your family is starting to not like me? So they think I'm taking advantage of you... why is it I always get to here such wonderful news from people? It seems like i'm always being acused of taking advantage of people... its begining to make me wonder. Why is it ( Read more... )

I can't sleep... I read part one of the first book my love wanted me to read, I am really beginning to understand why he so badly wants me to read the series. I can relate to what is going on in the book... wonder if its going to become a freaky weird reading experience? Anyway, the book is not what is keeping me up though. As I said I finished ( Read more... )

As I sit here and contemplate the idea of keeping a journal online I wonder why on earth would I want to make my thoughts public... Then I remember, in a since they already are. Right now it seems like nothing I do, think, say, feel, or write is private. I know this isn't completely true, but its difficult sometimes to remember this. I have added a ( Read more... )

From childhood's hours I have not been As others were- I have not seen as others saw. *Poe