im writting again. today was interesting. finals were easy, spanish was a bit scary, but still i think ill do fine. tomorrow is easy finals, english and bio, but we dont have a bio final. Today was fucking weird. Im so happy with zach though. I cant get him out of my head. although he was a major dick to me the last time i talked to him ( Read more... )

I know i never write in livejournal anymore, but i think i might really start because i need to have a better memory of things, plus i need to get my emo side out of me. My life is crazy now. its crazy in a good way though. but last night was bad.. me and amber snuck out at 1 and didnt get home until (party at jakes house).. it was fun but ( Read more... )

Its been a month since I have written. thats okay though. too much goes one, and has been going on, and it doesnt need to be wirrten because that doesnt help anything ( Read more... )

Lj has went down the tubes. No onw comments. Its disgusting. I hate it. Its ugly. thats why no one writes as much. Because no one comments. Then less and less people write, then less and less people comment. its pretty cool. spring break. all I can say is.. I am going to be slef medicating.

Read this song. its so sad. It makes me think so much about him and me. I love the end of it. makes me smile thinking one day he will feel as worthless as i have. Im twisted and weird. But read this fuckign song. or perish. and comment bitches ( Read more... )

I have been trying to write in Lj everyday. I think i am going to keep doing it because i always go back and read how i was feeling like a month ago. Its weird to read some of the htings i write. I have no clue what i am thinking when i post some really emo things. owel.. thats my style. I really hate school. But i feel rpoud because i have ( Read more... )

"Yes, I would have to say that nothing feels right anymore besides hurting myself. I think it feels so good to just let him use me. It really mkaes me feel like I am so small I dont even exist. I feel worthless, and strung out, just like an old joke that was taken too far. Its pretty amazing ( Read more... )

I think its funny. This life Im living. I think the way I am, my whole self is absolutly one of the most pathetic things I know. I am questioning my instincts, I am questioning exactly how I work. I dont understand how I can take such tradgedies, how I can withstand such amounts without caving in. I cry too much, but the tears rarley slove the ( Read more... )

Its funny how no one knows anything. Rachel^2, ashley and amanda. you guys know nothing about me anymore. I cant find the right words right now. all i can think about is how mad i am. How I am sitting here.. asking myself what is wrong with me. Im loosing all of you. In fact.. its just plain gone. i know nothing. You know nothing. its ( Read more... )

I said i wouldnt write about him anymore. Ha.. then i would have nothing to write about. Twipr was fucking retarded.. okay in some ways.. and perfect in others.. i dont really care about myself anymore.. i dont really care who i loose.. or why they are letting go of me. im so used to being used that it somehow feels good. i really dont feel ( Read more... )