my birthday was great. it was a mixture of great friends, one too many drinks and cameras which equals blackmail... Anyhow this year is going to be awesome. I've got a good feeling. So anyway. I'm done writing in this journal. it's been an interesting 2 years but all must come to an end

AhHhHhHh!!!!! Men stay lying!!!!! But you know what it don't fucking phase me.. People are gonna fuck with your head and your heart so long as you allow them.. Fuck it all !!! I am ME!! I do as I please and seek no one's approval so if you don't like it you don't need to be in my life.. So if you don't like what you see or what you hear there's the ( Read more... )

Well another summer comes to a close. I know I've said it before and I'll probably say it a million more times in my lifetime. I remember when summers use to be filled with possibilities? Of fun filled memories. But the older you get the rougher your summers turn out. This summer I saw who my friends were and just who weren't. I found love and lost ( Read more... )

I feel lost. I feel like I have so much to do and change in my life that I don't know where to begin. I want my faith back. My faith in people in love and in survival. I'm not sure how I'll get that back but I need to figure it all out. Here's how I'm gonna start. Tomorrow is a new day a new start. I'm going back to church tomorrow. I know this ( Read more... )

Well I had another guy break up with me. Joel broke up with me the other night because of many reasons. Mostly because I'm an angry person and he's right I am. I have been through so much in my life I didnt know how to stop being so angry at the world. Now I need to learn how to move on with my life. Here's what I need to do from this point on ( Read more... )

These last four years have been some what interesting. It's coming up on almost four years I've been living here and I was trying to think of one time I didn't have to force a smile on my face. There are very few times I can actually recall that I didn't fake it. I've spent the last two years trying to get over David Sanchez and it took me a long ( Read more... )

and this time next year there will be a son.. but will there be a father? im tired of putting my life on hold waiting to find out whats going to happen for my son. his life will be filled with what it can be filled with. if that means having his dad in the picture great. if it doesnt then great. but as for me waiting to see whats going to happen i ( Read more... )

Its been fucking craziness going on ( Read more... )

I worked my first day at my new job the other day and it was cool.. Now I won't be stating where I work now on here because I would like some things in my life to be private.. I think it's just time to separate myself from my old ways and old memories.. All I'm gonna say is that I've got a full time job and a 401k.. It's a start and I had to take ( Read more... )

So my pathmark days are officially over.. It was a nice run but due to things going on in my life right now it was best I left there.. This way no one can contact me.. As for my living situation well I'm currently taking time to figure that all out.. I start my first FULLTIME job TOMORROW!! I'm excited but also alittle nervous.. Then I'm suppose to ( Read more... )