Everything has been alright, been great actually till three days ago or so. My grandma is in the hospital. My best friend is getting a divorce. I wanted to talk to somebody but nobody is available. LOL! I actually saw a horoscope of mine and it said you will contact somebody in your past and you will get a clear sign to actually do it. It ( Read more... )

I can't put anybody at fault but myself. I feel like I'm digging my own grave right now. I'm digging it with all the tears I'm crying. My heart hurts more than ever. LOL! I thought everything was a dream. I woke up this morning and said you had a terrible dream. But then I stopped and thought no it wasn't a dream, it's for real. Life has ( Read more... )

I've been reading books that inspire me. I've actually been reading more than I have been for a while. I've been taking pictures, writing poetry, writing, and talking to friends and being with people that care. If I think about Nick I try to put it past me or busy myself with something else or I pray. I've been praying a lot and crying myself ( Read more... )

I've been hurt again...... I seriously believed him when he said he changed, when he said he missed breathing me in, and touching me, and loving me. I believed it all. I took everything in ( Read more... )

Where do I start? I'm not sure. At least he could have given me an excuse as to why he wasn't going to come to see me. All I wanted was one day. Is that too much to ask for? Maybe it is? Now I don't know when I'm going to see him or when he wants to see me. Sometimes I think it would be good to go back to the beginning....... but we can't. ( Read more... )

I found these two quotes and they are interesting. I just thought I would post them ( Read more... )

Your heart flutters when you talk to them. But my heart isn't doing that right now it is hurting. I don't think I feel unloved I think I feel ignored. I remember the times he used to call me baby, babe, and want to see me ( Read more... )

I really don't know why I'm writing but I guess I have to talk to somebody. This is the only thing that will sometimes listen. It won't yell, or be angry, or turn away from me and not talk to me anymore. I'm pretty much crying right now. I don't want to be here. I really just want somebody that loves me to be with me ........ to hold me. I ( Read more... )

I had to write my thoughts somewhere before I went to bed. So I decided to write them on here ( Read more... )

Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut because it seems like every time I open it things are taken the wrong way. Then I end up feeling the heat from what I said or what I didn't say or what I meant to say. Sometimes I think it would be best not to say anything. I really wanted this month to be argument and crying free. Does that make sense? I ( Read more... )