I dont know what is happening to me. Ever since that battle with those...things. I've felt completely helpless. And I cant shake the chill from my bones. The snow isnt helping. Looking out at it, all I can think of is how it covers everything and makes it appear tranquil, like a blanket of forgetfulness. I want everything to feel as settled as it ( Read more... )

I dont know what to wear to this Masked Ball thing. I dont do dances. It's not that I cant dance! I can. It's just the whole dressing up part. Sewing is not a talent I possess in any fashion. I suppose I could put the material in the middle of a circle and attempt to transmute a costume into being or...something. From what I have in my closet I ( Read more... )

It's gone. Completely and totally desimated. My usual reaction to something like this would be to switch into full military alert, start thinking tactically, gather information, make a plan. Instead I'm just wrapped in a ball of growing anxiety. What if someone is attacking the school and we're just too oblivious to be picking it up? It's the same ( Read more... )

The Field Trip is over. That's all I really have to say on that. Now I'm just trying to regain my bearings while wondering when the teachers are going to decide to go playing sadistic war games again. What were they trying to test us for? Was it some kind of prepairation? I dont understand ( Read more... )

The incident with Vivi just makes me feel all the more stupid for having used elements outside of class in that fight with Cloud. I never expected anyone would die doing the things that we do. Now I realize how dangerous our classes are. We're trying to bend Nature to our will, but we're just humans...Well,most of us ( Read more... )

So,I ended up too sick to go to the Ball. Heh. I guess Irvine was right and I should have spent more time in bed. But Im not into balls anyway. Dancing's not my thing and I wouldnt feel comfortable dancing with a guy. It would just be too wierd. And...yeah ( Read more... )

God! I hate being sick. Archer doesnt give a damn and if it wasnt for the books Edward leant me and the fact that I've been pouring over them like some devout scribe monk for the past week I'd be dead in the water in that class. The same goes for transmutation. I'm glad I took the time to carefully draw out every single variant in my notes. Made ( Read more... )

(OOC:Between being sick, house remodelling including painting and installing new carpets, life has been a bit errrrrrr...Glad to be back though ( Read more... )

Classes are going alright I suppose. Sometimes I can't make heads or tails of my Alchemy notes. It's all so complex but once I look at them in connection with notes on Transmutation it seems to make sense. Sort of...Maybe I'm just not a scientific person ( Read more... )