i feel completely rotten, skin to core. the blame belongs to no one but myself. I treat myself like shit, i treat other people like shit, and in turn i am a heap. i'd apologize for the smell except im pretty sure im surrounded by shiiiet most of the time anyways. it's refreshing when someone flushes, but most aren't so courteous. the breakdown is ( Read more... )

i am in atlanta house sitting an aunts house while my friend is at work. i will see her next year. i spent the entire day sitting on a couch watching sex in the city in an unfamiliar living room. my excitement was interrupted by loud knocks at the door. friends of a friend were looking for a party, i had no means to provide. they invited ( Read more... )

last night i dreamt that i had sex with Hugh Laurie.

when i smoke pot i am constantly reintroduced to things that i am soberly familiar with. this play of face sets off my imagination, while leaving history behind. it has it's downfalls, ill be the first to admit that. it's not always appropriate. that being said, i shouldn't have smoked today. i am very intolerant of my extended family on my dad's ( Read more... )

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im tired of not saying anything when something bugs me.. it's breaking me down on the inside. sometimes.. shit just isn't appropriate.

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big apple be gentle.

this is the part of my work day where i get insanely bored and start consuming mass amounts of liquids to see how long it takes for me to pee. yup.

I'm laying on my back on my bed,tears are forming pools in my ears. I feel like ive just kicked a puppy dog repeatedly. Seeing her like this makes me so angry, and so sad for her. I want to help her but I know I can't. I've tried, and it hurts me too much to have those talks with her. I can't imagine what that does to her, having her own daughter ( Read more... )