I know you will never read this and if you did i doubt you would realize its about you.... if you happen to Im sorry for sending you the card and i will not be bothering you ever again id rather have you happy no matter how it makes me feel. Sorry again I thought things would end different with us but i have to face reality... sad part is i really ( Read more... )

its been a long time with out her and the radio silence is starting to really get to me... i dont like that...sometimes i feel like the only one i can tell these things is my livejournal... today would have been one year if all went as planed... sadly thats not what happened.... all that im after is a life full of laughter as long as im laughing ( Read more... )

I miss you... im ready to break but idk if it will do any good... I hope u understand that im staying away and not contacting you to try and help... I wish only the best for you... I want u to be happy and if me staying away will do that I will go though the pain and suffering of looseing you so that u can be happy... I hope it works and that you ( Read more... )

so i have been in NH for the past 4 months... they have been some of the best times i have ever had and they will always hold a special place in my heart I meet 2 of the most amazing people i have ever had the privilege of spending time with and i think of it as an honor to be able to call them my friends and hope that after i leave i will still be ( Read more... )

I am afraid of one big thing... the thing im the most afraid of is never finding someone that will accept me... i thought i had that. i have gotten an amazing friend out of it if she ever talks to me again... i don't like being open with people because when you let them in they can hurt you and if you don't let them in you cant get hurt... that's ( Read more... )

its funny how i look back to may when i was so broken hearted about the same thing that is bothering me at this very moment. i guess things all really do come back at some point... i still feel like shit now but i have changed a few things about the way i look at things now. before all i wanted was to be with her i didn't care about how any one ( Read more... )

i dont wanna stope and look at other girls but i guess i have to... im honestly afraid of the future now and i have never been like that... i guess it all comes down to just another girl thats not the one for me... she joins a list of assholes and scum bags that dont deserve to be in any category with her... oh well you must move on and adapt

i really dont know what to think or feel... i wanna cry and scream and get drunk all at the same time...i really dont know what to do anymore... i had a point when i started this but now ive lost what i wanted to say... it most have not been important... like anything i write here or ever say is really important... sometimes i feel like im in ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish my dreams were real... i wish for so many things that i it should be obvious why most don't come true... most of all my dreams have changed recently to include one person and i like that but at the same ttime it kills me because its never gunna happen... at least im happy when i get to sleep... it dosent happen much lately but when ( Read more... )

i think i fucked up again... i let things go way to far... i let my feelings get to me instead of using my head... idk what to do it was a week of trying to fight my feeling and all it did was make me want her more... im not going to see her for almost a week and i hope it helps but im frighted that its only going to make me want her more... " ( Read more... )