Wow , i'm updating how exciting. Yeah i kinda read back on my entrys and noticed how muched i changed , yes things are better. Now i can actually live a better life. I don't need the weed, and i changed most of my friends. It actually does something. Now i need to finish highschoool . AHHH testing this week, what to do , i'm still behind but i will ( Read more... )

Theres a wall on my toungue fighting a war and a flood of graffiti whores and pain ringing in my ears is not the only thing keeping me awake and won't let me concentrate. I'm swollen with words , glands loaded like a bomb ready to explode.

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Well, i'm just being negative and wait, one thing the guy that said "i bet you 10$ that my lj is better then yours" well i don't really care , actually i'm shure yours is better and i hope your proud that your on a higher level then me, all your friends, money, looks. yah wou win, big deal ( Read more... )

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My heart is like a challis hard as stone bound to the floor- my apperence is all i'v shown,Am I alone or am I alone close to no one.Seeing what I wished but it was nothing at all, but never seeing through it all- because I’m stuck in the Abyss of it while running the halls looking at the pictures on the walls stalling to realize what’s that tear ( Read more... )

I don't want to be hostile ( Read more... )

It's been perfect you know..... I fell asleep during the test today when we were taking a brake and then they continued and i was still asleep. Nobody woke me up so i woke up and i was like a page or more behind so i started to rush and i was like fuck... I am still withdrawling, detoxing, craving and having thoughts about quiting drugs for a while ( Read more... )

Well for the people reading i think i am in luck, There is this band i'm in and i'm practicing today. The drummer is fucking like AWSOME, he can play tool and all sorts of shit. The first time i jammed with him i play one of my half songs and he just did the perfect beat, and i was just making up the rest of the song then and put my other riffs i'm ( Read more... )