i dont know who i am. Im starting to think i never really did and i was just fake my entire life. Like all i've ever done was do things to fit in ( Read more... )

So i dont know what to do. I haven't written in so long. I dont remember how to start. I need it now, i think. Its been to long. I need to do things i haven't in a while..calm myself down in some way..stop smoking so many ciggarettes..i need to stop wanting what i dont like. I need to boss up..stop being a pussy, leave town..its time..fuck school. ( Read more... )

Things been shit still...my entires in this thing must make me come off as a total emo kid. But what else is livejournal good for then a place to bitch and complain at, right? I feel so lonely lately. Im stupid. I have so many people around me that seem to actually care about me and im still lonley. I hate that feeling i get when im in a room full ( Read more... )

natalie --

[adjective]:

Like in nature to a train-riding hobo

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

So Natalie is uber sick. Yeah talking in third person is cool. So im over murph, but falling for another friend. sweet. I need to stop doing that. Im getting fat. grr. Nicko and I are starting a "band." I finally got the nerve to sing infront of a few people. Still gotta sing for him though. Right when i was ready to i got this stupid sickness and ( Read more... )

Yeah you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek ( Read more... )

This whole ignoring him thing really just started getting hard for me. Its only been a week damn it...thats nothing right. Well i wish it wasn't. I need more self-control. I didn't cry for a really long time...to long almost. Its a real good release. Its defently like puking when ur drunk. Your vision gets blurry, ur head hurts like hell...puking ( Read more... )

My livejournal has gotten me in trouble once again..yay. I wish i was lesbian sometimes...i think things ( Read more... )

Why do you lay in the grass?
Don't you want to be found?
Don't you want that?
Isn't the Sun even going to try to find a hole in the clouds?
Isn't it even going to try?
Why won't it try that?
Why do you lay so low in the grass?
Don't you want to be found?
Don't you want to be found?
I thought you wanted that?

haven't had a good few weeks, shit has been driving me bananas. I had someone ask me a couple weekends ago what shit has been bothering and the list i came up with was a little to long. I wish i knew how to drive so i could steal my mothers car and start driving south...hell ill even get my long-sleeved ass to suffer through the hot weather to get ( Read more... )