it feels just great being the piece of shit that can always be left or that can just wait. sucks feelings unwanted especially after shedding actual tears over what was written in my yearbook today. thinking back to those days actually made me cry... all of a sudden i seem to be an enemy or something... and the things they dont think i hear... "does ( Read more... )

its wierd how the feelings that used to be for me... i took for granted. heh, and now it seems, i would almost die to have them back... but the wierd thing is that i dont know if i would even start a relationship if they were... and yet, i cant but seem to help myself in possibly having feelings towards her... i dont get it...

seemingly
easily replaced...
easily forgotten...
which am i..

i dont know what is going on lately... life is good i guess... but questions still remained unanswered.. about things with others and within myself.. i still dont know what exactly to do.. i dont know where i should put my feelings, or if i can even control them in the least. it would seem not... just another roller coaster of life to keep on ( Read more... )

i love hugs... lol, as lame as it sounds... i do ( Read more... )

reasons we will never know...
some things i say i hate
some things i do i loathe
... sometimes i just hate myself for who i am...

what is it about certain people that always seem to just put a smile on my face. that seem to always cast an ever-bright light on even the darkest day. just one hug can make an entire day great. just being around them makes me forget about problems, stress, and worries... it never fails...

people say that we have all the time in the world... but how much time is that really? how much time to we each really have? no one knows... they say that time heals everything, but i have never seen problems, or pain, just disapear like the time before it...

its hard knowing that i have these feelings for her, but i was too late... shes moved on...

sitting here in the dark.. as the notes resinate from my guitar, as if each had its own story to tell... all problems disappear... nothing to hold me back.. nothing, but myself...